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2009-01-07T21:59:00.004+08:00

Open house busking earlier on. Finally, some pictures to upload. x)

Go yussay go yussay go!!

Ehwah, Annnneeeeh!

Ehwah, banananananana! Hahaha.

Well, at least there is something to look forward to in school. Hehe. After the 2nd busking, I chilled at the cafe with people whom I'm not suppose to be with. It was so ironic. And gee, Mas'ud sedare Farhad ehhhhhh. -__- Will someone just kill me? Haha! It makes two now to know Farhad's cousin. Sheesh. I might know Farhad's aunts too, maybe. Cik Tipah? Mak Bedah? maybe? Haha!

Okay, so yesterday's story is coming to an end soon, or so I'd hope. I don't wanna be thinking about all this because, it's definitely not a great way to start my 2009 with. May all of you fly with wings in the sky. Good luck with that. So I assume it's all settled eh? Even if it's not, I still want to think it has.

I've been having the tendency to piss people off this days, you know, like backout on to something that I've planned at a very last minute, bringing people dowwwwwwwwwwwwnnnnn etc. Oh wells, I have my reasons, so if you're still pissed with me, then I got nothing to say. Sorry then.

Oh yes, thankyou Kepung and Ichangkudin(love you) & friends for coming!So now I'm a fat house cat; needless to say. Have a nice SAY! x)

2009-01-06T20:58:00.003+08:00

School has been inevitably painful. I thought that my craze was gonna end at home, but nah, it carried on in class. The classmates were total spoilers for making me hear stories and endings about twilight, and I simply disliked it. I heard a "half-vampire baby" and all, but didn't even bothered to listen to the rest. It's somehow very frustrating.

So anyway, it was overall okay though I left my purse on the first day and my cell the other plus an almost-lost watch. I don't know what is wrong with me. Like my mind's outside and all. Heh. What made it worse was that I got news that a friend met a terrible accident a few days back, that he has to come and say it to me himself. I haven't been at all around have I?

Oh and yes, there is nothing else better than to make somewhow who is terribly worried about the situations that you have to blow it all out. Honestly, if that is how you tried to confront people to stay in your team, than you totally screw it big time. I don't care if your team is going sucking or whatever shit, but if that idea of being a leader is really stucked in your thick and outrageous brain, I have got nothing to say. Fine now, whatever ey.

Just to get everything of the hook, I met Ichangkudin and it was impromtu to catch Bedtime Stories. It was hilarious! I laughed out loud on the part he had a bee stung, and the friend had to translate it. "Jumping up and down the alligator...". Hahaha! Yes, I was looking at the movieboards just now and I really think that they are running out of movies to air. Heh.

Busking tommorrow in school, I hope it turns out okay. I have to pay a visit to the friend; cause he meant more than that. x)

2009-01-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

I amazingly, am done with the first volume. Not trying to be ostentatious or anything, but I just really enjoyed reading it. I honestly think that Edward Cullen's character is so much interesting in the book as compared to the one in the movie. The book is more detailed, of course and it doesn't leave me clueless at all. It's like Romeo and Juliet of the 20th century!

So I'm waiting for the sis to get the second one, because I can't stand the fact that I'm done reading it. I was bored seconds after I exclaimed "I've finished the book!" at home. Or maybe if sis will be taking so long to get it, I might consider getting the book myself; but the fact that I have to go looking for it somehow made my lazy-cetomosis grew more bizarre.

And what's great is that I'll be starting tutoring tommorrow. How I wished that I haven't finished reading it so that I can do that in my forty-five minutes of the bus journey. Wish me luck anyway. x)

"And so, the lion fell in love with the lamb" - Edward Cullen.

2009-01-01T20:32:00.004+08:00

My New Year Celebration was pleasant; just like I wanted. No partying or any of that sort. It was more of a slow and romantic one. Pretty laid-back I can say. x)

The fireworks were spectacular as always.

Supper was horrible. I can barely finish it. It's one of those kind like the cook prepared the meal in such a rush that nothing works at all. Terrible, I'm telling you.Waiting for the first train was a suicide, I didn't get home till 7. I'm definitely not a night-partyer.

I intended to have a chill over at Timbre but the place was crowded leaving us with no choice but to just have a sit outside. The band played songs that I was very familiar with; thus the sing-a-long. We had to go off after they played about 5 to 6 songs cause I needed the loo badly. Hehehe.

Oh, I caught Twilight again for the secondth time. This time, the audience were much more supporting as they were more attentive so they laughed for every little funny there were in the show. Somehow I find it more interesting than watching it with Rosy. Hahaha.

Oh, and I've picked up a new hobby for 2009. Reading, that is. Strange, I know. Ichangkudin was surprised to know that I was reading in the morning. So yes, basically I am officially a twlighter. So much of a fan that I'll go nuts just putting the book down even for a minute.

As far as I can remember, the last time I had reading as a hobby was during high school. I was into Harry Potter back then that I finished reading all the disastrous thick books- J.K Rowling would have been impressed. Okay now, I have a book to be obsessed with. x)

Oh my, that's the last thing that I would ever want to happen for the start of the year. A broken ankle, again. How pleasant. Sheesh. Take good care of yourself, will you? Clumsy old man. But I love you still. (:

2008-12-31T13:56:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year everybody!

I know it's early, but since I'll be out for countdown later, I might not have the chance to wish all of you. So yes, let 2008 pass without a single regret, and welcome 2009 of future wonders.

Have a great year ahead & all the best for your future endeavours.

Ps: This song is perfect to start a new year, I love it, much. 'It is exactly my brand of heroin.'

Love, yussay08'.

2008-12-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

So, I caught Twilight in the evening. I know its cliche and overrated but heck, its such a fucking nice show! However, it's so unfortunate to be watching it with Rosy, cause she wants whatever I want. And that includes all the haba-habas in the show. -_-

Anyway, there are actually better images of the casts but I love this one cause it makes me fly! hahaha. Nah, I just love the way Robert looks into Kristen's eyes so deeply and speaking so close to her ears though it freaked me because it feels like he's gonna suck her blood anytime. Hahaha. Okay, I sound so excited.

I thought he looked familiar, then I realised that he acted as Cedric in Harry Potter. And yes, suddenly I remembered that I have called him a hottie once upon a time. And now it's back again. :D

Now, me and Rosy have new motivations to get a job. Yes, the xperia. Since it's gona cost a bomb, we might think that it is best if we just work for a month and finish all the pay just to get this cell. See, I told you that whatever I want, Rosy wants it too. Tsk.

Therefore, our new resolutions would be getting an awesome dream cellphone and a vampire boyfriend! xD

Btw, practice was okay just that I peeled off my skin which was from a blister! Dang, I sound as if it's my first time playing percussion. x)

Ps: I'm not a doll which you can just throw whatever anger that's inside of you. I have feelings too, so deal with it. I'm tired of all this shit.

2008-12-28T19:31:00.004+08:00

The big Red & Blue wedding; was spectacularrrrrr. I know that many have already attended or gone through experiences of the preparations for weddings of their personal closest ones, but I don't care because this one is definitely a memorable one for me! x)

Mr Saifful here is the first 'kid' to wed among the whole of my entire generation of cousins and siblings.Yes, the first one!(on the Mother's side,of course) See his achievement?nyehehe. Therefore, you can expect, total panic and anxiousness plus nervousness in my family throughout the whole week. Cause, its the first time, and you always want things to be perfect for the first time. x)

Flashback: I can still recall the time when he was so hot during his younger days; that all the girls or even aunts would keep asking around just to get a picture of him. And now that his married, so shoo! Hahaha.

And I love their Blue outfit; especially the dress and the threads on it. Eghhhh. x)

The perfect wedding. Or close to perfect, I can say.

But to have all things to go smoothly, definitely there's a lot of effort that has to be put in. So, I put in mine. Hehehe. I drew three of the directory signage which had to be exactly the same cause they didn't allow me to photocopy. Tsk. And suddenly, I remembered those days when I stayed awake just to finish up my Art coursework. Hahaha.

So while the adults were busy, the kids never fail to run around the playground under the hot sun just to have fun. Been there, done that. Hehehe.

So yes, congrats to Mr Saifful and Ms Raslinda for the great, big wedding. May you go through the future that lies ahead together and fall deeply in love till eternity. Aww, you two lovebirds. x)

Seeing them wed has made me think how my wedding would be like, and so I was dreamy most of the time. Yes, suddenly adrenalin start gushing in and I want to get married! Ibuk, sayer nak kahwin! Eee, gatal.xD

2008-12-26T17:00:00.003+08:00

My Christmas was great, cause there are food everywhere, that when you think you're done, your throat feels like munching other things. My throat on the other hand, wasn't in a christmas mood. Its been having piercing pains that only god knows how sick it is. So definitely, I had to swallow food 3x10 slower than my normal pace. Eghh.

So when I reached my chinese grandad's place, I was so thrilled to see barley drinks. Just what I need! Now, I love my grandparents so much cause they know when their grandchild is getting sick and they got everything ready. Hehehe. Grandma made the best fried chicken ever; something that I have been looking for since months.Sometimes I think that my grandparents are the perfect psychic! Ke-pow!

And unfortunately, I was kicked by an unbearable stomach cramp while I was on the way back. The only thing on my mind was just muscalax and a bed to lie on. And I had an amazing 38.7 fever with shivers. Ahh, body aches comes in so handy next. So now, I can officially say that I'm sick! -_____-

And to you, another disappoinment ey? I hope you're wise in choosing your next journey of life. You can do it! I'll be here to support every moment of it. Think wisely,baby. Wisely. x)

2008-12-24T20:26:00.010+08:00

Vivo city and Keppel Bay and Hortpark's outing. See, I mean it. So, its another day with the d80 after I begged Milly to lend it to me. :D

Trust me, I had a hard time choosing which of the pictures to upload out of the 247 shots. Yes, as crazy as the numeric number is, its just exciting to see it increasing moment after another. I don't know why but I keep landing on other places instead of the ones that I wanted to go. Nah, I think the places are more beautiful than the one that I planned to. x)

Falah joined us after drunch, but it was so goooooood to know that he brought his dslr but with no battery pack in it. And no, Keppel Bay disallowed phototakings but we sneaked cause it was such a beautiful place.Hehehe.

HortPark was so greeny and floral and all. And the swing happen to be the best object and focal point of our photography session. Ichangkuddin was so excited to try out the camera; as you can imagine.

And yes, thankyou Falah for bringing us to the beautiful places and taking great pictures. I am a very happy girl again! I'm wondering if there's any other great places for me to explore. I wanna enjoy being in the sun, feeling all thirsty just to get a picture in the memory. x)

And honestly, going out to these places is such a breather. Because after that would be back to my life of eating, sleeping, studying and percussion sessions. For the record, I tried to enjoy as much as I can during the holidays even if it means not going away overseas. And I'm impressed that I did. x)

I'm off to watch Mamma Mia with the sisters. It's Christmas eve. I'll be going to my chinese grandad's place tommorrow to celebrate his birthday plus a little thanksgiving. Speaking of which, I still haven't got the 'chosen' Kiky girls thanksgiving present. Dang.

I love Ichangkuddin! Hee.

Okay, Merry Christmas everybody! Happy holidays. xD

2008-12-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

I know that I said I'll update about Snowcity,but I have itchy fingers and so decided to update on this! Yes, Milly was lucky to be able to loan the d80 from school and ahhhh, I can't stand seeing the pictures we took at the barrage. Its awesome, I'm telling you. hee. Basically the pictures without me in it, means that I'm the one snapping. x)

As Singaporeans would say, "Go fly kite." Haha! xD

Well, my initial plan was actually to go to South Pier. However, me and Milly realised that the signs to the barrage was more than that of South Pier. Therefore, we 'landed' there instead. But it wasn't at all a wrong decision. x)

And yes, I love the skies of the Singapore and I love my country for making me feel that I'm somewhere else but at the same time feel at home. I am a happy girl. xD

Esplanade was the next destination before I headed off for Bloco. And practice was so exhausting plus it ended late. I spent most of my time standing, repeating routines. Sheesh. Okay, next would be Keppel's Bay and HortPark. This time, I mean it. x)

Goodnight or rather Goodmorning people!

2008-12-22T01:19:00.004+08:00

The Singapore-Vietnam second leg match. And as much as you think that I'm exhausted, I can never stop laughing about the typical Singaporeans' reactions and the Kallang waves. Haha.

Bob and Hulk were basically crazy about the funky hats and I'll have to admit that it actually suits them. Oh and the signature cheer for this year's is eleven claps rhythm plus "Butooo!". Hahaha. It gets very annoying even after the match cause there were car horns doing that and a lot would respond. Ahhh, Singaporeans.

Oh, and I'm pretty impressed with myself because I actually paid close attention to the match without even having a blink away from the field. My brother has taught me the rules of the game when I was younger but I wasn't quite sure about it. Moreover, I was shocked to see myself standing up when the Singapore players had shots. I know, so just shut up. Hahaha!

But they lost anyways, so jyeah. Who cares, its over. Haha.

Next update would be some snow city pictures. xD

2008-12-18T21:03:00.004+08:00

I've just got home from the body massage and I'm feeling all rejuvenated & fresh & sleepy. Hehehe. Now I'm trying my best to keep my eyes open for a call after he gets back from soccer before I get to bed. Meanwhile, I shall watch GG. (:

And sheesh, I think I need to start managing my friendster account cause its honestly so old and filthy.Hee. And I missed my Kiky girls already. xD

2008-12-18T12:26:00.007+08:00

A trip down to town with Ichangkuddin for godknowshowlong. xD

Don't mind my uncontrollable fringe.yucks.

Ooooh, I so love the picture above. (:

And I thought I looked aneroxic in the last picture. Anyway, yes, I skipped practice again. But I assumed it to be as handrum as ever. Milley text me to meet him and go together but by then, I was already out. Heh. Sorry Milley! (:

So yes, and nothing can be as much fun as going out with Ichangkuddin. Not gonna write down much about it cause you'll might think that I'm bragging too much. Heee. So just gonna give some movie critic about the show we caught.

So, after so long contemplating, we caught the show because like hello, it Keanu Reeves okay! Hehehe. But I think that I couldn't really catch the ball as much cause all I cared was to see his appearances. Haha. So overall, I guess I'm gonna rate a 6/10. The ending was sweet though. So yeap. (x

Great great night. Hehehe.

I'm going for a full body massage with the Misran's girls today. And tomorrow would be out with the kids to Science Center & Snow City. Saturday would prolly be out with Shining star. Wow, I've got thousands of great plans coming up & money draining out too. I hope tutoring would start soon cause the one on Tuesday was cancelled. Tsk.

2008-12-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

I literally stayed at home today. The terrible thing about holidays is that you would be chock-full with chores. However, I'm still glad that the new washing machine has arrived! Its been horrendous without being able to spin the clothes and hanging it out to dry for the past three days. So that makes the chores double; as so you can see.

I felt like going out earlier on but figure that my 'L' (Lazy-cetamosis) disease started kicking in and so I had to terribly rot at home. By noon, I got so bored surfing the net so I woke Ichangkuddin and disturbed him for all I care. Haha. He's been keeping totally quiet now and then when I was talking; which means that he's been sleeping! -.- And thankgod his mom and brother started making noise trying to dismental the bed. Hahaha. Bagusssss.

My sister was getting ready for her one-night only barbeque pit, so the kitchen was in total mess with food that doesn't look at all appetizing. Haha. But somehow, I wished that someone or many one(if there's such a word) would organise something like that so that I can have fun somehow. Nah, it's going to be tiring & I can't stand exaustion.

Kumar somehow chat with me and he actually asked me out for supper. And it's so embarrassing to know that I'm the only one in class that doesn't know he drives. -_- But whatever it is, I hope that supper outing will be soon. Though I'll be asleep by then. Hahaha.

Oh and I went for Bloco yesterday. I know its fun, but I keep clinging on to Fyzah and asking her what I should play. Hahaha. I kept saying 'Fyzah,I'm scared' and she'll go 'huh?what are you scared of?' Haha! Kentals. So then, I saw the bells and picked it up but Fyzah say the bells section is full. And next week will be selection, and I'm not sure if I can make the cut with my one time attendance. Haha. Whatever it is, let's just pray. (:
Ps: Rosy, you're dead. Thanks for revealing the beauty secrets of mine in your entry. You dead. Haha!

2008-12-15T10:54:00.002+08:00

So Sunday was a family gathering that I have to attend else the Mom would make a big fuss out of it. Since the brother is driving, so its so much better knowing my high level of laziness. There were so many things going on. Introduction to self to all the relatives; and I swear that I know so much about one another after so long. -.- So the main idea was to get the Dad's siblings together cause it was much for my late grandparents.

Oh yes, and you would not believe that they are actually TWINS! I know, they don't even look identical. They were born on the same day two minutes after another. Haha! And just look at their poses; its almost the same. Twins mahh. xD

So that is the Dad's elder sister, and Wak Farid, who have a nephew that I'm guilty of almost molesting with. Eww. -______- Haha!

And look at how shy my parents go when they were introducing themselves. Pretty smiles after such a long time. Hehehe. (:

And in future maybe, it might be me and my sibling's turn to organise these kind of get-together. Alah, I hope all of them won't be getting married fast, cause I'll probably be the only one left unmarried. I'm the youngest for goodness sake. And I still need them to support me for my education & clothes & food & daily supplies & everything! Hehehe. x) Oh wow, I've just realised that I've been using alot of their money. Haha! Love my family. (:

2008-12-13T23:16:00.008+08:00

I shuffled through the tracks in my mp3 when I was out shopping with the mum and sis earlier. I suddenly figured that there are so many songs that make you remember at least someone. So I made a list of the songs that I listened to and the first people that crossed my mind when I was listening to it. Here goes. 1.Syaheeda- Always Be My Baby ( Maria Carey) 2.Ichangkudin- Tigerlily (Matchbook Romance)
3.Fyzah- Fly By (Blue)
4.Wawa-Thunder (Boys LikeGirls)
5.Val- King of Yesterday (Jude)
6.Nas- Won't Go Home Without You (Maroon 5)
7.Fyqah- Trouble Sleeping (The Perishers)
8.Anneh- Whatever You Like (T.I)
9.Nins- Troublemaker (Akon)
10.Rozy- Now Or Never ehhh Rosy! (Zac Efron)
11.Milly-Anyone Else But You (The Moldy Peaches)
12.Wan- My Love (The Sallys)
13.Fai- No One (Alicia Keys)
14.Faiz- Easy Way (Still River)
15. Iban Jiwer- How Six Songs Collide (Norwegian Recycling)
16.Akmal- Fall For You (Secondhand Serenade)
17.Zul- Drinking For 11 (Mad Caddies)
18. Kumar- Look Me In My Eyes (Akon)

I know, like wth. See guys, who says I don't remember all of you? Heh. So what song makes you all think of me? Huh huh huh?? Hehehe.

So anyway, two of my friends have already sent emails about them backing off. Dang. I know that I can't waste anymore time. But honestly, I think that this crazy passion of mine is really driving me nuts. There's always a problem to it, which I have no idea why. Either people think that I'm spending tooooooo much time on it or just that they start to create so much conflict over this thing. If only all this can just go away and be back like the way when I first started. It was so much fun then.

And I'm kinda pissed that people keep asking me the same thing over and over again about this matter. I just can't be bothered to think about it all because I'm just so tired. Commitment yada yada. Whatever the fuck. I don't remember this passion to be so serious and dull. As far as I can recall, all I had was simply fun. Nothing else. Maybe people are starting to be too serious with this, or maybe its just me who is lagging behind. Who knows.

But if this passion means for the friendships or bonds or RELATIONSHIPS that were built over the past months/year to wreck, then maybe I should just give it all up.Hey,that is the reason why I joined at the first place. I mean, there's no wrong having this kinda talent but I figured that the people who are sooo into it are making things the way it is now. But to even have someone you trust most to be feeling that its 'just a waste of time',it sucked big time. And I utterly hate it.

So there I go. I'm leaving it all stagnant and untouched again. Because, I just choose to ignore about this matter though I know that its not going to bring me to anywhere. Hate it, i'm telling you. Hate it.

2008-12-13T00:16:00.003+08:00

Oh,how could you? How could you say that to me? I know I sucked in it, but how could you? That was the last thing that I ever want to hear from you and omygod. I have a dream. My own dream. And I thought that you'll be there to support me. To say, 'go ahead'. I'm not expecting much, but just a little support.
But like I said, if living my dream means to make you feel inecure, than I would give it all away. I make sacrifices for you just to see you happy. Cause all I care about is you. But if a simple thankyou is too much to ask for, then there's nothing I can do. I'm petrified by the words you said. Petrified.

2008-12-12T11:16:00.000+08:00

I would give this show a 7/10 for the never ending shocking and screaming scenes. It is indeed genuinely disturbing. However, I hate the ending! -.- Pleah.
So anyway, Anney was great though short. I did enjoyed myself though with the screaming and non- stop shocking scenes. I'm telling you, I got pretty tired of the screaming. HAHA. I felt as if my chest was almost exploding. Okay, exaggerating. Hahaha.

But hey, two years and five months ey? Thanks for always being there. I hope it stays strong aight. I still love you the same, in fact, more. Let's bring wonders to the world! Love you baby,and always will. 100806!(:

And now, Nins and Rosy are brainwashing me. I know I have to decide about it soon, but gees, everytime I start thinking about it, I find myself ignoring it again. As a whole, I'm keeping the situation stagnant just because I can't be bothered. Ahhh, life. So in conclusion? Finish what you have started or you'll get stuck in the same position as I am. Shessh.

Oh, and I'm starting tutoring on tuesday. I'm broke, my stash low and goshh, I really need some money or I'll die. Hahaha. And suddenly, I feel like getting a PDA phone; just because I think I'm gonna be super busy and my schedules is going to be tight. Ahhh, life again. Oh, and I know that I'm running out of pictures, cause I keep uploading the same ones. Hold on, cause I can feel a vacation rolling! (:

I'm going to skip class today because its the last day of school. Haha. Lame excuse; but heck, I actually had a hard time waking up this morning. Whatever it is, you guys enjoy your weekends.

2008-12-09T10:44:00.005+08:00

I know its been ages. I've been busy having fun. Sleepover at Ichangkudin's place during the weekends were great though exhausting. I had to accompany his mum at home cause he had to go for training. Soon enough we got bored and then went out together. Got myself a big side bag for school. Vertical limit seemed to be the chosen midnight show because Nizam wanted to watch it so bad. By 1 am, Fairuz and Ichangkudin were snoring as loud as possible. I wanted to go to bed too, but figured that I should accompany Nizam to finish the show instead. (:

Sunday morning was to follow them to their dikir show. Aghh, and I thought I could just stay at home with his mum because I was just so tired and beat. And finally, I get to meet Tasha and Amelia after so long. Wah, rindu macam nak giler. Hee. The show was kinda short though, but heck I was having my eyes closed most of the time in bus rides.

Then came this part when Bob kept disturbing about me wearing the tudung. Malu nyer. He saw me in tudung during the 7th Anniversary death gathering and was totally impressed. He said I looked like “the last Malay girl on earth ( Wanita Melayu Terakhir)". -.- Wth. Hahaha.

The rest of the evening was spent watching the Singapore Vs Myanmar match and dinner and more Call of Duty. Hah. That game is so addictive I’m telling you. Even Kumar was impressed that I actually played that game. Haha.

And now, I'm starting to fancy kids with curls all over again. Haha. Cute okay! It looks like open-mouth shots ar the in thing now. And Hari Raya Haji was great too, super full with great dishes. (:

2008-12-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

I entered class yesterday to see everybody wearing all black. I looked at my outfit and exclaimed "Oh shoot, I totally forgot!".The whole class planned to grab a class photo taking with an all black outfit. I was lucky that I brought my black cardigan. Haha. Then I skipped class because of the 21 slides long problem statement. So no photo taking, and no class. Hah.

Therefore, made my way to town to catch Quantum of Solace since Rave and Kumar wanted to watch it so badly. I was never a fan of Bond and thus I don't enjoyed it at all. I just agreed to watch it because everyone else does. At the end of the show, nobody caught no ball and kedish goes my six bucks. -.-

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Sentosa outing on Sunday was great, definitely. There was rain-shine a couple of times and we had a great swim in the sea plus food and all. Not forgetting jokes and laughter that were always unstoppable. Picture takings were awesome though exhausting. (:

After that was more chatting and singing at Vivo. The day was great, or at least I have a wonderful time relaxing and letting my hair down since long. I love mua girls. *you chocolate, you chocolate??*

okay bye!

2008-12-01T22:22:00.001+08:00

I wasn't in my best mood today. I don't know why but I have this sense of worried shit for the whole day in class. Like you know, there's always something that you keep thinking about. Its terrible. I wasn't even concentrating. Then came this horrendous part to make decisions. You know how much I hate deciding and that actually lead to a really stressful day.

I was supposed to go for Bloco but I chose not to due to some irritating reason. I don't know if its just me being unreasonable but I think its time I make up my mind. Yeap. So, I went to Ichangkudin's place instead because I just feel like it. And that was a great choice indeed. I played with Qashri the whole evening and watch two of prison break four. (:

Ah, this picture is just too cute. Oh oh, look at the kid. Uber cute lah with his curls and the cup in his hand. Haha.

So it was a great evening, and I laughed alot looking at old pictures. Plus embarassing to be showing it to a bunch of people. -.- Embarrassing okay! But yes, I hope I made him happy like since long cause I figured he needs a breather. Even a walk to the shop at the void deck was good enough to make him have a little air out of the whole thing. (:

Not to self: I have yet to make up my mind. Don't take too long yussy. Sentosa update soon.

To you, baby.

2008-11-29T14:37:00.002+08:00

I was so petrified to hear your loss. I know how much you loved him. But baby, you just gotta be strong. Things just happened to be that way; take this as a motivation to carry on with life. You taken care of him so well and I'm proud of you. Now that he left, just let him go. He'll have all the angels to look after him now. And you should'nt at all take this as a burden to stop you from living. He'll look at you from above and all you gotta to do is just pray for him to rest in peace.

And baby, I'll walk this journey of life with you. I'm gonna take your hand and stay beside you. I'm not going to neglect you baby. If I ever did or ever will, give me a slap because from this day forward, all I care about is you. Just you. I'm gonna give all my strength. I'm gonna give my all, my all to you even if it makes me feel so weak. Just to ensure that life is meaningful the way it is. I'm going to make you as happy as I can because I never want to see you break down ever again.

I love you baby. And I always will. Now and forever.

100806 baby, 100806.

2008-11-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

I have no idea why you went, and I have no idea why you're coming back. Friends don't do that do they? They don't leave each other hanging. They stay together through ups and down, happiness and sadness. They are happy for one another.

I'm tired of thinking 'hey,what've I done wrong?' and it tires me really bad. We were once close, and then at a blink, kedish. How do you think I feel about that? And now, you're so eager to want to talk. How do you think I feel about that? As much as you needed time to find yourself, I somehow need time to talk. Or even look at you. Its just so hard. Everything's hard.

I tried not to think about it and put it all behind, but somehow, one way or another, I kept thinking. Im unsure how's the ending gonna be like, and if its real that way, then I might have to agree. 'Be strong; and take a walk on the beach to find your true self'. Cause honestly, I don't think this is you.

So, as my anger of words; just go away. The words will change eventually, IF it will.

2008-11-25T23:45:00.004+08:00

I missed class on Monday, just because the three of them were late. So, DLLS lah kan. Hehehe. Had breakfast before heading to town for I don't what. But it was definitely a fun day and we can't stop talking about our excitement. -.-

There are other pictures, which are censored, so Hahaha. xD

We made our way to suntec soon after, to look for the Twister game. Hahah. And gosh, was it tiring. The walking plus the laptop holding just exhaust me. And we came across Rastafari, obviously there were so many things for us to buy. We held our horses; financial snag. Hehehe. Besides, there's still thanksgiving gifts to get. (:

After that, I met Ichangkudin. So, like I've said, everything's been crazy. I'm just hoping that he'll stay strong no matter what happen. I'll pray for you. That's for sure. (:

And today, I've gave class a miss again. I just don't feel like going to school, because my body told me to. Haha. And gosh, I've been keeping myself close to him, for him to be strong in facing this week's challenge. Everything will be fine. (:

A perfect picture to end with. After so long, I found this in Nins cellphone. As much as I'm surprised, cause I haven't seen the picture before but it's already in her cellphone. Stalker. Hahaha. Somehow, I feel famous. You know, like stars don't know that their pictures are taken until its in media. Haha. Fine, whatever. Hehehe. And a big thankyou to whoever that took this shot. I love it. Hee. (:

Aight, goodnight.

2008-11-24T01:43:00.001+08:00

On sunday, I went to sent Amirah off to the airport. She's so lucky to be going to Hong Kong at a very young age of 9. Jealous okay! I only got to go to Australia at the age of 15. pleah. Well, maybe it depends on the luck opened to that individual. (:

Anyways, I've been having so much fun chilling out with my three darlings, for the past few days. It's like we've had our hair down and there's nothing to worry about. Precisely why I fell in love with them. Hehehe. So last thursday and friday, we chilled at a clandestine place. Haha!

Things have been crazy nowadays, but I'm still happy that there are people who keeps an opening ear to listen to my problems. I'm indeed very lucky. I love you. And gosh, I'm excited for Thanksgiving. Wonder which part of my list I would get. ily NYR!(:

2008-11-20T10:35:00.004+08:00

I know it's rather surprising, but I somehow feel that it's the right thing to do for now. I need a breather. Everything's so crazy now. School, friends, beats. You're busy with your own stuffs, and I'm busy with mine. Take this chance to do what you wanna do. Do what you're doing from the moment I spent all my time on beats. I've been so selfish.

And now that everything's over, and after I've recovered, we'll be back like we use to be. We'll be spending the whole time together. Just you & me. No beats, nothing. You, me and the sun. I appreciate your understanding thus far. So, just stay with me baby, stay with me. Because I love you like no one else does. Im sorry.

Love, yussy. 100806.

2008-11-19T22:50:00.003+08:00

I'm done watching gossip girl like two days ago. I finished it in like what, three nights?Hahaha. I'm an amazing tv audience. So now, I'm watching season two selowwwwlly because I don't want to watch till the 10th episode that I currently have and then wait for the rest of the episodes to be out. I hate waiting and anticipating. It drives me crazy.

Now that I'm too hooked with Gossip Girl, I can't even remember which episode of prison break that I've last watched. -.- So, I'm basically seeing the forever-thinking expression of Michael Scofield and not know which scene was the last that I watched. I've been getting spoilers from my classmates about the show of which I tried to shut them up and not explain any further. Because if they continue doing that, I'll be the one killing them. Hahaha.

Anyways, I just wanna share this conversation of me and yanie about the 'mama joke' or so we called it. Hahaha. It starts with yanie reminding herself about what advises that were given from her mum. And I rephrased whatever she said, or rather what her mum said. Haha. Its actually much funnier in Malay but I'll do some translation. Hee.

yanie: Mak aku kater kalau bahu aku sakit, maknenyer ade hantu dudok atas bahu aku.
(My mum said if I feel my shoulder aching, it means that there's a ghost sitting on my shoulder.)

me: Tapi Mak aku kater kalau bahu Hantu sakit, maknenyer aku dudok atas dier!
(But my mum said if the ghost's shoulder is aching, it means that I'm sitting on it!)

Hahahahaha. Okay,I know it's lame. But its just something that I keep recalling and laughing to myself.

2008-11-18T23:04:00.004+08:00

First of all, let's wish my two cousins and my two close friends a huge Happy Birthday! Yeay. (:

Wow, I bet they have the best birthday ever. Trust me, I have never had a birthday celebration this big. ): So anyways, there were many cake-cuttings happening within a week. I thought that July was crazy but I never have thought that November was even crazier. Heh.

Amirah's birthday celebration was just a family thing. So, basically,as you can imagine, food was served everywhere and all I did was to munch and munch the whole time. Yes, I know. Anyways, the kids were having a lot of fun with the presents and all. They even quarrelled to blow candles. Heheh.

Faiz's was just a mini slice of cake with a candle on top at Esplanade. His celebration cum RDP performance was said to be the best birthday ever. And that slice of cake was quite expensive because its the best. Love you cousin! You had a kickass birthday as far as I can see.

Sya's and Hafiz's were celebrated at one shot; We crashed Ary's place and there were food when I reached there. Hehehe. And Sya was blindfolded the whole time until she reached Ary's. Hafiz arrive long after and so whats left were just donuts with candles. Jadi lah. (x

So, overall, I'm just wishing there's no more November babies, because its so crazy. Hehehe. But I am happy that I was able to celebrate their birthday with them. I hope they remembered mine. *hint* Hehehe. Okay now. GG time. (:

2008-11-17T12:23:00.009+08:00

I went for the gig at Music Garage on Saturday. It was cool because I know the vocalist. The band was called Pop Brothers if I'm not mistaken. But jyeah,the guys were friendly but not a turn-on. Hehehe.

I had to rush off to school right after that,which was crazy. I realised that the train was moving too slow, so I dropped off yishun and grabbed a cab to school. And amazingly, I was able to reach school at 8pm sharp. I feel like a Wonderwoman! Heh.

Overall, Artistic Tapestry was great; especially the last item-Zingo drum. They were awesome.Me and IJs can't stop shouting crapp,which can sometimes be annoying.(: And then I saw yuhtee, and so we blabbered about people and GG. Hahaha. Okay, I so miss her though we're in the same school. But I rarely had a chance to bump into her.tsk.

Sunday was a mini celebration for Amirah's and Aunt Ham's birthday. So, there were food everywhere. And Aunt Ham brought me the Animal goodies! So happy. Hehehe. So after that was out with Ichangkudin to catch Madagascar two. Weehee. Great great Weekends!

RDP's having their performance at Esplanade today. I'm still deciding whether to go. City Hall is like so far and with my lappy all, ughh, that make me double lazy. But I won't have anything to do at home if I don't go. -.-

And I called the tuition agent like finally, after so much of asking yuhtee questions on how to start the conversation. Hahaha.I did that like as if it's my first time applying for a job. -.- So yes, I hope I'll get assignments soon. I'm broke. Okay,bye now.

So yesterday.

2008-11-14T21:03:00.008+08:00

Oh, I feel so outdated right now. I fell in love with Penn Badgley. I don't remember him being so charming like previously and now?-.- So, I just got the Gossipgirl Season 1 series like yesterday and would you ever believe it that I burnt my whole sleeping time just to watch it last night. I stopped at four in the morning perfectly and managed to catch it till the 7th episode. Crazy-yes,tell me about it. Thanks to Nicolle and Juan for influencing me. So right now, what I have to do is to give my PrisonBreak a BREAK because I would need to wait fot Kumar or whoever to download the rest of the episodes. Hehehe.

I have been going back home from school very early these days. I wonder why. I think I just feel like taking a break out of going home from school when its dark. And you know, walking home in the afternoon is great,really. Sometimes it made me laugh to see people's reactions and stuffs. It definitely put a smile on my face cause I know that I have ended my day well without even a pinch of exhaustion. Now, I can't run from the fact that I've missed going home so early. And to have the time of my practices exchanged to me doing my own things, woah the power! (:

Moving on. I've just realised that I've got so many overdue pictures in my cellphone. And you know, since I've already found out; there we go. I have no idea when these pictures were taken. Hah.

ahhh, giiirrrrlllls. -.-

Perfect closing picture. xD

I've got plans tommorrow; of which will clash. Dang. Artistic Tapestry or Pop the Top? Somebody help me. -.-

2008-11-12T20:39:00.006+08:00

I attended my module selection briefing earlier in the afternoon. Ohmygod, I found myself so confused oh how to go about selecting. I was practically asking Fysah and Has sbout the selection though it has already been repeated by my module chair for so many times. The core-discipline, core-specialisation and electives and yadayada. Oh wow, I felt as if my head was almost bursting! Nah, that would be a lie. (:

I was so lucky to bump into Sam and Firdaus.Hah. I asked them like whole lot of questions about the selection and they actually end up getting confused. Hahaha. Then, I showed Sam about my course and modules blablabla and then he explained to me again and again. I finally understood after like what? 6 times of him repeating. Firdaus was totally saying 'spare me the acronyms'. You should know how good Singapore is with acronyms yah. Hehehe.

And yes, I skipped mass practice today cause I don't feel like going. Besides, I need to help my mum with some things. So yeapp.Dang, I need to start uploading pictures. My posts are getting so boring each day. Heh. I'll think of an outing and then I'll post pictures soon aight. (:

Okay,I wanna watch PrisonBreak. And ohhhhhhhhhh, womanizer,womanizer! Hehehe. Bubbye!

Oh my, CB cancelled?! Aiseymann. ):

2008-11-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

I know that I'm not a spendthrift, and I definitely would not be one. But I can't stand seeing this Animal pleats! Its so pretty. I wonder if I can bring it for school, hey, of course I can. So Aunt Ham, maybe I need your help here. Please. (:

I was texting Aunt Ham wishing her a Happy Birthday. And her reply was awesome, 'Thanks, oh and Nana, i've got two Animal skirts for you.' I was like woahh. And at that point of time, I got a little confuse on whether its her birthday or mine.Hehehe. Nonetheless, I really love her much and of course my Uncle. His a great chad. (:

So maybe if I were to ask a triggering question on whether I can get the pleats, I may be able to own it pretty soon. That includes the shipping and all. So right now,I'm crossing my fingers. I've already taken down the model number, ahaha a little knowledge I gained while working under salesline. Hehehehe.

I don't know why, but I seriously think my friends are getting belo day by day.I wonder WAN(WHY, i mean). Hahaha. So here's a chat of me and Syaz this morning when I told him that I need the costumes' receipts for claims. -_-

syaz broken into pieces: remind me to bring the receipts later in the evening.

yousee; the power: okey kedokey boss.

syaz broken into pieces: wait, should I bring along the receipt for our sheesha session as well?

syaz broken into pieces: our meeting for at the sheesha not counted eh?

yousee; the power: err,just bring.bring everything. hahaha.

syaz broken into pieces: okay, then I shall bring the receipts for my shopping for groceries at Sheng Shiong the other day.

yousee; the power: yes,bring it along.Bring along the receipts when we had desserts at Swensen's with yanie,milly and rosy as well! -_-

Anney was great.It's been quite a while since we spent time together. Hee.The holding hands, oh the power. (x

Tommorow's the day.

2008-11-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

I had a great day out with the mum yesterday. It's shopping with the mum man, what more can you ask for. Hehehe. I've just realised that she was so patient to be following me around the mall to get my things. Of course, I make her have drinks on me. There so many things that I wanted to buy at that point of time but since I'm not a fan of being a big spender, I would end up saying that I'll get it the next round. And by then, everything would be out. -_- typical yussie.

I was suppose to meet a few of the IJs today, but I gave it a miss. Probably because its sunday, and you know, I've been so busy with practice. So, it's a must for me to spend some time with the family. But it was a wrong decision, because I found myself eating continously, which is definitely a crime. That's because the Dad has been bringing me to my favourite food paradise since yesterday. Thankgod the two kids were at my place so I was totally playing with them the whole day. (x

And my mum make me ask the aunt about getting the Animal skirt. Dang, how embarrassing. pfft. Hahaha. And the aunt claimed that she have a sexy Animal sundress and she can pass it to me if I want. Errr, a sexy sundress? Man, I'm gonna need a lot of cloth to cover that up. Hehehe.

Anyway, don't you guys feel that the weather is getting super hot this days? I'm still perspiring besides the 45 min of soaking myself in the tub. Sheesh. Oh yes, Happy Anney btw. (x

Let's get started.

2008-11-07T21:50:00.001+08:00

Beats Encore;the whole family. Credits to Aqilah's camera.

Iban Jiwarr's performance video. Thankyou Ain for the recording and uploading. Hee. If you can, spot which part we shouted "Iban Jiwarr!".

Yes, I know its been like what? how many days already but people are still talking about it. Hahaha. And we, ourselves couldn't even help it. It was just an awesome show. Hehehe.

Anyways, I had this tiny chat with Rosy about going to the dental clinic the other day which is so hilarious! Bello nyer Rosy.

Rosy says: Why? you wanna tag along? my DOCTOR is so young & handsome.

yousee says : doctor or DENTIST? hahahaha.

Rosy says : HAHAHA! Dentist is the place isn't it?? So doctor ahh.

yousee says : your head! Dentist is the one who check your teeth! The place is called Dental Clinic. Hahaha.

Rosy says : Oh yah. ahahaha. dang, you're clever.

yousee says : Bello. Hahaha.

I don't know if she's confused about the fact that people always say 'I'm going to the dentist' or is it just her being bello. Hahahaha. Funny lah Rosy. (x

So anyways, I had a meeting with the CBs (closing bash) I mean. We were discussing about what we're gonna do for our item. I'm telling you, its going to be great. Hehe. Or so i hope. And there are heavy practice schedules; oh my. And I thought Reflections was so over. Hahaha. But nah, its the last shot for this year and then its a wrap up. Hehehe.

Taufik Batisah; oh my, I can't wait to meet him. Or so i hope that i can. Hehehe. Okay now, I'll end with pictures of the other day that we pooled and arcaded. Can't tell you when. (x

Reflections 08' Iban Jiwarr.

2008-11-05T22:30:00.003+08:00

I can never describe how exhilarating Reflections was. It was such a great moment of my happy life. I was glad that I did not encounter any sense of nervousness; that would probably be because I know that my fellow Iban Jiwarr mates have got my back.

I mean, we've been through so much together and we know that it was just the perfect time to give our best shot.The dressing room was filled with some little sense of confidence and a little excitement. We had little prayers lead by Wan which was such a great moment of ease and tensions.

Backstage was just a pathway to another victory to our three months of bushed reharsals and all. I felt a little cold shiver when the girls were almost done with their song. I gave hugs to the three who were beside me; and I felt assured. Warm cheerings and all gave me more confidence the moment I stepped out. It was a true moment. The time when I know that this is it.

The lightings were awesome; spectacular. It ended with a loud BANG and poses that were beyond words. Words that can't describe on how thrilling and relieved we were after all the efforts put in. It was dramatically awesome and incredible.

So,just a little note for my lovable Iban Jiwarrs, this might be the first and the last time we performed together. But I hope that the sense of belonging and the bonds we've made so far, will stay this way. All of you are sucha bliss. I love every single one of you; from the bottom of my heart. Trully.

And to you dear friend, I am trully sorry for being so insensitive that I didn't even realised that I've let you down. I'm sorry. I'll pray for your syazillah aight. And I'm just so happy that all the very important people in my life were there to support me. My family, my three important bestfriends.Thankyou so much everybody. It was a great evening. Love you all. (x

Right now, I've really got to get my ass to school. I'm skipping classes way too many; which is a crime. I've missed a UT and if ever a warning letter gets to me, I'm dead.

2008-11-03T23:34:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Yanehhhh! Heh. Hoped you love the cake and the not-lighted up candle that goes with it. Hee. So enjoy your wonderful Birthday you old fart! Weee. (x

So, its the eve of our Reflections and I'm so freaking excited. The opening of the festival during lunch period was spectacular. Dang! I was 'pissesness' after walking & talking to Syaz on the way to school so that leads to me skipping class. And so, me and syaz and bud stayed around; and helped to carry out the instruments. Like usual, I learnt something new.

Oh my, I saw Mdm Lis! My high-school art teacher! I would actually thought that she would not longer remember me, than she said "How can I forget about you. You've got A1." Hahaha. Okay that's dope. And I actually turned all red. Hehehe.

So yeahh, anyway. I've got a lot of ticketings to settle. So, my final good luck wishes to all my Beats Encore members. Hee. Do your best aigth people! Have fun. (:

2008-11-02T21:11:00.003+08:00

Yes, so that is the final all-together photograph of Iban Jiwarr; in costumes of course. Dope? (: So, things have been pretty hectic with dry runs and reharsals and all. All I brought back home was just an all beat up body. I know that I need a lot of rests, now that the day is just in two. But things are so crazy and all, so I guess that I have to endure it a little more. (x

And I promise you, that by the time all these are over, I'll be lying down on the bright sands of the beach or maybe a little body pamper. Oooh, I can so feel it coming and I'm definitely excited. So yes, a little more for the final stretch and Boom. Hee. Oh, and I've been hearing that people actually liked the IJ's group name. Weee. And I've realised that our cloths are being used everywhere. So maybe, if we succeed, we'll have our couture ready by the end of summer. Haha. (:

Oh and yes, I've caught high school musical again for the secondth. I know, I know, but I just can't resist anyone telling me that they haven't been watching that. I feel like accompanying anyone who have not caught that. So, have you? Hee. Oh yeah, I was supposed to be out with IJs just now, but I figured that I was suffering from a major L sickness. Hehehe.

And to whoever, I think it might be a little immature for you to get to your tops like that. Even God knows that me and him have nothing already. That high school love is soo over. Its been like what,three years now? So, maybe you should start bothering about something else. And moga Allah ampunkan dosa mu. (x

2008-10-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

Pictures on class outing. (:

The shot below are for guys only; so I held my muscles up to look like a guy. & the other two girls, don't bother.Hahaha. (:

And we tried convincing Nicolle and Joey that that thing was a decomposed whale. -_-

So, my oh-so-long bus journey with firdaus was a sleepy ride.hahaha. It was so funny when I talked about how short and kental he was when he was 13. Wahahahaha. okay kelakar. And I labelled him Smoker Belo now, just because he realised that he didn't have lighter only after we made rounds around the hawker area to find a shop that sell a box of ciggs. So, we had to make another round to look for the lighter. Hahaha. -_-

So,the gathering was okay, we had individual activities. Most of us were cycling; that includes me, smokerBelo and dharma. Me & firdaus rented a double-cycle bicycle; so it was fun cause his always the one cycling. Haha. And then we tried to have a mini race with dharma but our bicycle went haywire when dharma was just right behind us. -_-

And the food was all yummy. Khairiyah's fried noodles are dope yaw. Hehehe.Oh, and Laifu took me for a ride with his rented bicycle, which was so DOPE! weee. Its so incredible that he can take my weight. Incredible.Hee. So yeap, here goes the final picture. I can't stop laughing when he asked me a random question about someone. Hahahaha. okay, shuddup yussie. Haha.

Happy Birthday Mummy! Hee. May all your wishes and dreams come true. Hee. Sayang Ibuk. Weee. (:

Promotion.

2008-10-27T23:41:00.004+08:00

I caught High School Musical three like finally! I know I've promised to watch it with Abu, but I can't wait till Saturday,its taking too long. But hey, no harm watching it twice right? Hehehe. I would give it an 8/10. I actually thought that the prom would be more spectacular, but it is still good afterall. Hee. So maybe you'll enjoy it if you're a fan, or maybe you won't. Individual opinions. (:

Anyways, let's do a lil' of self-promoting shall we? I know its a lil' cliche for performers to gather people to come and watch them do their thing, but just come & support lah ehh. hahaha. So this is a self-made IJ poster. Credits to Syaz, of course.

Catch this Tribal Performance

as a part of the"Beats Encore: You've Got Beats II"Concert.

Date: 04.11.2008

Venue: The Republic Culture Center Studio

Time: 7.30pm

Iban Jiwarr will be busking @ Republic Polytechnic on 4th November, 12.20pm, Outside Booklink/7-11. Do catch us there. Busking to promote the "You've Got Beats II" concert which will take place on the night itself. (adapted from Nins).

So yeap, see you there! (: Sheesha session with IJ tommorrow. Like finally! xD

It just suck big time when you gave me that control. Screw you man. Gees, whatever.

2008-10-26T01:10:00.004+08:00

So, I went to catch the dikir performance at esplanade despite having a terrible flu plus bodyache. Honestly, I felt like fainting while I was in the train cause it was jam-packed. Eghh, I can hardly breathe. Fortunately I had Vapex with me, it helps alot. Hee. (:

So these are pictures that I've snapped, which all turns out nice. Hee. Thanks to Syaz's camera. Hehehe.

Finally, I managed to take a shot of the four karuts; they keep moving around & I had a hard time taking the four of them together.

Wow, Irfan (the little boy) is the star now. Hee.

Its been so long since I met up with the dikir girls. Unfortunately, not of all of them came. So, I was with Tasha most of the time. And this picture, is a once in a lifetime shot cause its so hard to get her to take pictures. I would have to act like I'm gonna cry just to grab this. Hahaha. Oh and Bob, the moment he saw me he said "Eh, kak yus!" -_- ( tua sangat ke sayer nie?). For him to call me that is so inappropriate lah can. But he's been calling me that since God knows when. Haha.

Okay now, I need to pop two tabs of paracetamol and get to rest.Happy Deepavali btw. Hehehe.

Project Runway.

2008-10-25T20:42:00.006+08:00

Asked Syaz, Ninie & Milly to come over for a chill out session yesterday. Erm, well, not quite a chilling session I would say. We had to do some cloth-cutting for our costumes. It was quite fun though I was practically doing nothing most of the time, due to my bad backache. I was down with flu soon enough and I felt quite tired after some time.

Anyways, my living room was in a mess. Milly and Ninie were ironing some strips of the cloth when Milly mentioned "Eh, like Project Runway eh?". And you know how much I loved that show, so I was practically so imaginative right after that. Hehehe. Oh, and we had a try-out for the face paints. I wouldn't want to upload the pictures because its confidential. hahaha. whatever.

And oh, I just love my Mum so much, as you can imagine.She got all my costume done by evening, which took her the entire of her Saturday. She is down with flu but she help me out with the sewing still. And I pity her cause she had to shop for groceries, then cook and then sew. But no worries, I helped her with the chores. Ohh, I just love my Mum! Hee. (:

I would have to admit that I'm so bad in sewing. I mean, I've taken sewing during HomeEconomics, but I never liked it. Well, Abu was sitting next to me back then during class, he should know. Hahaha. gosh. Akward flashbacks. Dang.

I feel like watching high school muscial three. Don't ask me why. xD

2008-10-22T15:00:00.001+08:00

Some practice session pictures for tuesday.

Oh, and trust me Fai looks like his on a one night stand or something. Hahaha. (:

So, we had a meet up to practice our movements. It ended up to a hiphop battle for the underground. I have no idea why it turned out that way but I promise you, it was very random. We had our first hiphop battle for the first time during one of our very busy rehearsals in the studio. So for us to do it again, was way doper. Hahaha. And gosh, that ended for like almost an hour. With rappings and dope dance moves, dang, I would never have thought that we were THAT talented. Hee.

Who would have guessed that doing that was way exhausting than doing the movements. But it was sure fun, cause that's the only time that I felt so happy after such a long time. And we were doing all that so enthusiastically like as if we will win some big stash or something. Crazy bunch of people. Love you all. Hehehe.

So who would like to take the heat of the hiphop battle with IJ? you choking?you choking? Dope. tsk. Hahaha.

2008-10-21T15:07:00.000+08:00

A chat with Faiz after I took care of him during the Raya Outing on Sunday.

Faiz sepet says : Thanks for taking care of me ytd. (:
yousee says : Oh welcome. you should take good care of yourself. you get sick easily.
Faiz sepet says : (:
Faiz sepet says : haha.
yousee says : heh.

Oh well, you wonder why he was so nice to me. I know he's sincere, but wait till you get this.

Faiz sepet says : my birthday is in a month. *hint hint*

And he gave me a link.

yousee says : ahaha, so?
Faiz sepet says : *hint hint*
yousee says : (trying to change the topic) my dp lawa ehh. Heee.
Faiz sepet : lawa, but you open the link lagi lawa.

So, i did. and saw this.

male; sizes M & L

$70.

yousee says : oh okay, looks like I have to start saving.
Faiz sepet says : haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. serious? I was just joking. *jual mahal*
yousee says : jual mahal? Okay then. Hee.
Faiz sepet : Nolah.
yousee says : alah, by the time your birthday is here, it would be out of stock.
Faiz sepet : don't worry, he will replenish the stock every month.
yousee says : Oh well, wait till your birthday is here. Then everybody would want to have a cousin like me. Hahahaha.
Faiz sepet : -_-

That's just to shut him up. hahahaha

Anyways, pictures on Sunday's Raya Outing. First up was at yanehh's. Then to Nat's & Rosey's.

Faiz was already feeling nauseous at my place. And I swear he acted as if he's all shy when talking to my Dad. Hehehe.

And by the time they reached my place; all of them were totally hungry. So they ate quite a lot while waiting for Syaz. He took so long that we got all lethargic & restless. Hahaha. The pictures of Faiz & Fai on the left, explained it all. (:

Last house is at Fai's. Ohmygahhh, I so love his house! Its all cosy and I feel like I'm in a kampong. Oooh, I just love the feeling. And there were 'flying Lopes' too. hahaha. Milley, Faiz, Ninie and yaneh went home after that. While the rest of us stayed to play concentration games. Of which I'm kinda good in. Heee. Trust me, they know better. Hehehe. It was just a great day, though very exhausting.

Strength; to you.

2008-10-20T22:50:00.003+08:00

To you dear friend. To you.

I am sorry for your loss dear friend. I know that no words can explain how you're feeling right now. I know that no matter how hard I try to stop you from crying, it wouldn't help a single bit. I know that I can't help to see you breakdown like that. I know how you wished he was still right beside you, talking to you. I know that you just wanna close your eyes, and wake up thinking that its a dream. You have to let it go. Just let it go.

You're not to blame dear friend. Not to blame. If you love him, God loves him more. I know that no matter how hard I tried to ease your pain, it doesn't help a single bit. But I can assure you dear friend, that I'll be right here with you in your darkest moments.I'll be the shoulder to cry on. I'll be the one with hugs so that you'll feel warmth.

Strength is all you need dear friend. Be strong, have strength. Cause with strength,it keeps you going. It gives you faith to face whatever challenges that God tests you. Strength dear friend, strength. Plus a little prayer and faith; you'll be okay.

you'll be okay.

To you Syazni. To you.

2008-10-20T11:18:00.005+08:00

Raya Outing with Adamentium on Saturday.

Falah's shot is wicked man. Hahaha. (:

So, I have no idea why they say my hair looks like a minah, tsk. But I took that positively and turn it all over to a very minah-ish style. "Take care sial!" Hahahaha. Freaking funny, I'm telling you. And ohmygahhh, I ate a lot because I feel like eating; and because almost all the houses have mum's-cooked dishes. ooooh, I just can't resist.

I've then got a comment from someone that during the month of Ramadan, I should have lose weight, not gain. Well, don't blame me for that. I have bad influence. Hahaha. It's my third time,oh wait or fourth? celebrating raya with them. And so it was fun. (:

Dry Run.

2008-10-17T00:00:00.001+08:00

I wouldn't say its bad, and I wouldn't say it good either. I just chose to watch the show because of the hot Mark Wahlberg. I guess you'll understand better if you've played the game. Cause to me, it is a little unlinkable. But he's just hot. That's all I can say.

I was so contented with the Dry Run performance we had earlier in the evening. We had compliments from Zaini; the Man of TRCC. I,on the other hand was very worried that he'll screw me up right on my face, because my playing was wack. But it was a phew. And hence, the pictures. (:

I find the shots of Faiz and Fai so pretty. (:

And the strange thing is that, we always realised that Syaz is not in pictures whenever we have a group photo-taking session. Especially when the pictures taken turned out so well. But yeah, it was just a super exhausting day. And I swear,that I was very contented. Very very contented. Hehehe. Great job!

However, apart from this, we have a little thing to decide about. Maybe, we should just give him a chance, no? Or maybe the chances given were way too many. I don't know, but its crazy that when times like this, people are being so unfair. Why is that?

Ouh, and ohmy. I had to pass house-visiting with two of my cliques tommorrow. That is wack, i'm telling you. Two long-time-never-see cliques just because they told me at the very last minute. And that just because I will die, if I don't follow Ichangkudin tommorrow. Haish. Things get so tough when it comes to deciding. Anyways, enjoy your weekends as much as I will. I'm gonna be uber shagged; I'm telling you.

2008-10-14T14:07:00.001+08:00

Whoa. Things have been crazy. I haven't even got the time to take a rest. fuhh. Anyways, there is so much to blog about. I guess I just have to give it some time as soon as I get all the pictures needed. I'm gonna be all shagged this week. So yeah, proper updates soon. Hee.

Ps: I wanna catch Eagle Eye. alah. Reflections coming & I'm tensed. Sheesh. Aight soon soon.

2008-10-08T14:51:00.000+08:00

Mass session was cool. Finished up with the finale, done. I played the conga & bongo set because yanehh was at hiphop. Wahh, mcm expert; padahal padahal. Hahaha. It was fun. Izam said that he wanted to see whether I can manage, with sarcasm of course. I gave him a smile. (: But he awwed when I gave a heck of a play. Hahaha.

During showcases, I kept on disturbing wanKenji & Izam. Fortunately they were cool enough to deal with my nonsense. But gerek lah kacau dorg! We played PickUpDRUMSTICKS, coool gilerrr.Hahaha. And I had these ass-grabbing sessions. It started off with yaneh's. Then Dura, hell, it was damn contagious. Hahahaha. but fun. There were actually more pictures but since yatt(mf) ruined it all, he got his ass grabbed too. Hahahaha. bodoh ah.

Had dinner with Izam & Syaz. Hahaha. It was irritating. Me and Syaz conducted a sort of interview for Izam to join IbanJiwarr. Super funny! Hahaha. We assured that he'll get a good contract and recording. Haha, mcm paham. Then, I kept saying "eh, ader budak kenjidot ahh, yg Wan tuu. wahh, I'm his die hard fan sehh! But I hate the tall guy that played surdo (referring to Izam) " Hahaha.

Okay, we are okay.

2008-10-06T11:44:00.002+08:00

Finally, pictures on the previous two performances. Hehehe. (:

So Saturday;

Syaz went "ehhh, nie camera aku ke camera kau?" because its always him snapping the pictures, and me IN the picture. Hahaha.

It was a fine day; though hot. But I was pretty much enjoying every moment on stage. Mummy & my sis & Ichangkudin were there. weehee.Like finally,I was allowed to play tamborim and I think that it was way thrilling; especially when I'm all hyped up. It was great. Heehee. But Conga, is still undefeatable. okay sheesh.

Then comes Monday;

Lunchtime performance was better than okay. Except our movement was a little wack. yeapp. But it was fun too. I unexpectedly wasn't quite nervous. Hehehe. guess its the second time I'm doing the same song so I was a little more confident. It was great. Definitely. I had to leave for 2nd meeting and skipped 3rd meeting. Weehee.

So what I did was just hangout with some people at the coffeshop to grab a drink & then went to a little shelter while waiting for the rain to stop. iyeapp. Heee. It was good too. Ghost stories, strange experiences and all. Returned to school for IJ practice which was so HOTHOT! Hehehe. I mean, Syaz's dancer was way hotter than Mr H. hahaha. Me & Rosy was so distracted with his awness, until I realised that he had a bling on his right wedding finger. Aghh. chance wasted. Hahaha. (:

Sorry, but I'm starting to dislike you. okay, whatever.

2008-10-04T11:20:00.000+08:00

House visiting has been okay but I get so tired easily. I skipped class halfway on Friday only to know that my cousins didn't wanna tag along with us on the last minute. Tsk. I was annoyed, as you can imagine but decided to just take a breather & chill out. Besides, its a month of forgiving; I wouldn't wanna miss that. Hee.

The performance earlier in the morning was okayy too. I'll update as soon as I get the pictures down. Hehehe. (:

I really hope you'll get better. Seeing you fall was a major breakdown for me. Please, get well soon. I love you, no matter how much. I love you.

2008-10-02T10:49:00.002+08:00

I don't know why but I was pretty much looking forward to coming to school. Maybe because I feel that my Hari Raya celebration wasn't as exciting as I expected. Dang. Boringg man.

So school is better than okay though it was maths module. Tsk. But I was glad that I had funny team mates, Nadhirah and LiJuan. We had a hazardous chat about the class and some 'cute' guys. pleah. Hahaha. And honestly, I can't deal with their crazy emoticons. It got me all cracked up laughing. Word. I remembered Nad saying " tuu lah dah lamer tak dtg kan." because I have not been attending the module. Ouchh. Hahaha. I'm just looking forward to like be in the same team as them again. Heee.

Practice was okayy, normal I guess. And I have to start working my butts off. I keep messing up the sequence and all. Tsk. oh yes, I don't know why, but I'm actually feeling all excited for the performance this Saturday. why is that?? heh. Weird. Hehehe.

And yes, I'm getting featured for Syazni's Sonic Avenue. Wahhhh. But I'm not gonna be so excited because they might come up with better plans. Besides, I still got a lot to learn. Dang. and no, Milly, you can't be the lead singer. I just seriously think you should get braces?. Hahaha. ohh, Milly's all mad now. Heee. I'm happy happy. (:

Happyhappy!

2008-09-30T21:30:00.004+08:00

Omygod. Its already Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2008! It seems like only yesterday we had the ampun maaf & all in 2007. wahh, I've never felt so excited for this celebration before. Its awesome. And I hope I get to meet my dearest Faiz cousin. Hahaha. nooo. Its not like I won't see him, I see him everyday. pleahh. I'm so happy because I'm done with the chores,the dishes ohmy,Everything.

Oh oh oh, and my K530i,oh my! It unexpectedly revived! Alhamdullilah. Heee. and sorry Syaz, my sister threw away your cellphone.Terribly sorry seh. Hee. Alahh, now that my K530i has revived, I can't ask for Iphone from him. Tsk. Hahahaha. Ohyes, and I've got PrisonBreak Season 4. oh how I missed my Wenworth. Heh.

and dang! I chanced upon Fyzah's blog & ohmygod! its freaking funny! Hahaha. Wawa's & my 'word of motivation' cool or what. Hahaha. Aiseyy. ohh, I miss those high school times man. But I don't wanna be doing the mugging & all again. And if y'all can remember, we actually had a video recorded while waiting for the 5n2s to finish their lesson. 'HEADS UP!', then there's someone who lifted her skirt. Ingat ingat??Hahaha. Super funny sia. Haha! Gosh, if i were given the chance to write down all those moments, it'll take forever. But it was definitely cool. Hee.

You know, great memories are meant to be kept in the heart as long as we can. Beautiful things should be treasured. Hee. and I definitely treasure everbody who loves Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Hee. So to all my peoples, be it IJ, BE, Rdp, Dutyqz, 677, Ademantium or whatever clicknames y'all have, Selamat Hari Rayer, maaf zahir batin! Hee. Ampunkan okay- sedangkan Nabi ampunkan umat. and y'all are not even Nabi lah can, so maafkan! hahaha. okayy2. Heee. (:

2008-09-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

Today was practice for Saturday's performance. Dope, i'm telling you. But wahhh, it was so exhausting yet fun. I'm playing the tamborim & I swear that its so exciting because I was able to dance all night! Hee. Accesories are so cool and I think that they are the ones who should start the fire cracking. So movements are very essential. They do have the advantage of getting the crowd to dance and groove to the beat.

However, I'm starting to miss my conga already. Alahaii. Hee. Honestly, I figured that I should play accessories for performances because I don't want to waste my energy and swell my hands on hand drums. So heeeheee. I mean, I've been wanting to play the tamborim for so long, but haven't got the chance. And now that I can, its a chance that I had to grab. iyeappp.

I came up with a wonderful & irritating song for the peoples. Haha. and they like boleh layan.

Ayam masak itik, itik masak ayam.
Ayam jadi itik, itik jadi ayam.

Hahahaha. Funny I tell you.

And Hari Raya is soo coming! I'm done with almost everything except the cooking of dishes. I'm not sure if I wanna help but there aren't any chores left. Hehehe. I'm excited to start wearing the costumes & try the goodies. Heee. Suke lahh Hari Rayer. Okay okay, Maaf Zahir Batin! (:

Finally we were able to talk again; and that hug was just. Utterly splendid. Love you all lahh Besteys.

Agony.

2008-09-27T16:32:00.003+08:00

I swear to God, I feel like hugging you back just now. and cry, just cry in your arms. But somehow, something stopped me from doing that. I felt a sense of ego right back there. I didn't know what to do. The only thing I'm talking to you was just about rhythms. Omygahh. How sick is that? I'm sorry. It'll get better, I'll get better. Promise.

And to the other you, I know that you've been trying so hard to start a conversation. but all I did was just to turn away. arghh. I felt a sense of stupidity gushing right in me. But I really didn't know what to do. I'm really sorry. I'm being utterly selfish. OhmyGod.

But to just look at the both of you made me wanna cry even more. There were just times when I wanna pull the both of you to the side & gave a huge hug to say I'm sorry. To say, I shouldn't have done that. I'm missing the both of you more! So much more. Please God, give me the faith and strength to make me be myself again. Time is taking so long. Too long. I can't bear to see them be in such agony. y'all are my bestfriends. Please God, please.

Formula One.

2008-09-26T19:28:00.000+08:00

I literally refused to go to school because I was'nt in the mood & I just don't feel like it. I decided to follow Ichangkudin to Bedok and then send him off to work. He got a job as a Porter for FormulaOne. Jyeahh. Effing cool. I wanted to catch the nightrace so bad. ):

So, I went off back home. When in the late afternoon, I got a text from Min. He had two free passes to F1! Omygahhh, as usual, I was so excited & I decided to go down there with him. Wahh, its like a miracle. It was kinda random for him to ask me, but heck, its F1 behbehh. Hee.

There were testdrives by the time we reached there, and the sound of the cars dozzing by made me all hyped up. And for real, earplugs were essential. I almost had my eardrums burst like a cannon. Hahaha. (:

L. Hamilton, F. Massa & Alonso behbehh. I swear to God it was so tough to grab a shot. (:

And I have this quarrel with Min about Hamilton being first in place. Haha. Okay2, Alonso and Massa can top him but yesterday's timings, they didn't quite make it. All Min mentioned was Hamilton being overrated. I totally disagree with that. Bluek. Let's just wait till Sunday. (:

Oh, and I just realised that French guys are so HOT! jyeahh. But this french band did a great performance man. Or maybe its the genre that they played, that made me like them so much. The performance was all hyped up when AustinPowers and his chickies came dancing up front. And the song made me wanna dance too but I had my horses down. yeapp. Hee.

I'm trying my best to regain strength again. It takes time. A whole of time. Bear with me, pleaase. Thankyou for all your patience. No matter what, I still love all of you. Just give it time. Time.

I just wanna do this.

2008-09-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

I wanna breakdown and just cry. I don't care about anything else. I wanna run away and never come back into this world. I wanna see the sky that makes me happy. I wanna see the sun shine down on me. Because right now, I'm feeling utterly horrible & terrible. Please God, give me faith. Give me strength to carry on. Amin.

And its times like this, when I just need a shoulder to cry on, a place full of warmth. Ichangkudin was there for me for the entire day. The very first person whom I called the moment I cried badly. The moment I prayed that everything will be fine. To keep me safe and warm. To make me feel like as if nothing has happened. To make me smile for the whole entire day. To have a good meal despite the loss of appetite that I encountered. Thankyou soo much. Life's never been this great until you came.I'm so happy that I have you.

Thankyou.

Whatever it is, I know that I can't run away forever, I know I have to overcome this no matter what happened. Everyone makes mistakes; mine was the stupidiest. I know, and I know. I'm sorry about what I've done. Thats all I can afford to say for now. Time will heal. I'm pretty sure of that. Let time do his work. Just Time.I'm just sorry people, just sorry.

Let the music heal your soul.

2008-09-24T23:40:00.006+08:00

I would really love to apologise to those whom I promised and had made plans with for today. It took me so long to think about which one to go to. So, I decided to get my hair highlighted instead; which is so not in the options.yesyes, Indecisive -part one. Hee. which means that I skipped mass practice. I don't know, but I figured that I'm getting much lazier to attend mass practices. Probably because my part is so effing boring, and that they always emphasise on bigger instruments. Or maybe its just me?

So highlighting session was err. As usual, I had a hard time picking out the colours. And its time like this when Ichangkudin & Syaz comes in handy. Whywhywhy do I have to be so indecisive man? Hahaha. So anyways, the hairdresser had a good recommendation for my hair colour. I got all freaked out actually as I was so worried if it doesn't turn out nice. But I've got a good assurance from her and Ichangkudin. Hee.

After that was to Ichangkudin's place. jyeahh. Chill out for awhile before heading back home. Oh3, and dinner at the TehTarik house is effing nice okay. Hee. Oh, and I chanced on Abu's blog and now I'm clinged to Let The Music Heal Your Soul. Its evergreen.

Honestly, maybe what he say is true. I have to stop being so indecisive because it can really hurt people's feelings. But hey, this is me. I can change, but I can't do it immediately. Its not easy dealing with all this. Fine, I shouldn't have said I'll go. Then maybe I should just don't give a damn about all of you. For once, do understand me. I tried being there for as much as I can but sometimes when things doesn't go your way, then maybe its just not your luck. I'm only human. Please God, let the music heal my soul. I'm just sorry.

Weekends.

2008-09-22T23:24:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Nursyaheeda Begum! Ohh, you're my one & only shining star. Hee. Finally you're 19! Weehee. you know I love you soo much. thankyou for always being there for me through forever, thick & thin. Moga Allah panjangkan umur & murahkan rezeki. Aminamin. (; So her birthday celebration was great; many people came. She was very busy serving all of us. Very pitiful. Hee. I was so glad to have met her like finally. I've been busy with so many things and I didn't have time for her. I'm sorry sayang! But you're still my shining star okay. Forever.
Oh and at the mall, I freaked out when this guy doing mimes came to me. That was only after I disturbed him with my stupid handsigns. Hahaha. then he came, and did an "ET". you know, like ET had his finger pointed & then the boy would do the same thing? He was trying to do that & I freaked big time. Hahaha. I've got a good serve-you-right laugh from Abu, Macha & Feroz. Haha. Whatever. (;

And like finally, me & macha had a long chat about people. Hahahaha. "we met weird people ahh.Deng lah, Takkk lah." Hahahaha. *inside joke*. But seriously, these two people are the reason why we have to start gossiping. Tak baik sehh. Hahaha. Guyss. -_______- But hey, its so fun to be talking about the guys who have ultimately the same behaviour. perangai Redep ehh macha? Chey, dah pandai. Hahaha. Then came this part,

Syaheeda: eh, you guys wanna bring back currypuffs?

Me: ahh, takpe ah syeeda. buat susah jerrr.

Macha : eh, boleh ah sikit. Rezeki jangan tolak, maut jangan carik.

Me: -_____-

Macha : betol pe, Rezeki jangan tolak, maut jangan carik.

Me : yelahh, Rezeki jangan tolak, maut jangan carik, kalau tak nak cakap nak, kalau taknak cakap Sudah! Hahahaha.

Sunday was a trip to Johore with the family; scorching hot as usual. Got some things for Hari Raya. fortunately there were no congestion so it was all fast-going. and omygahh, there were so many Singaporeans; and I bumped into a few that I know. yeap. Dinner was great as usual. fuhh, and like finally I had my ikan pari bakar. wahh, the feeling was so great and I ate to my heart's content.

This morning, me, Syazni, Azmil and Zuliyani was DLLS- (Dah Lambat Lambatkan Skali) for first meeting. Its no longer NIFM (Not In First Meeting) lah ehh. Hahaha. perangai sehh satu2. Hee. and jyeahh, IJ practice laterr. coolnesssss. Hee. Let's work on things people.

Oh, and I'm gonna highlight my hair somehow this week. I'm still thinking of the colour tone. and yess, manicure session from the cousin this Sunday. wahhhh, I'm getting all excited for Hari Rayer! Bestnyer. Weehee.

Its A Beautiful Day.

2008-09-19T02:25:00.001+08:00

See the world in green and blue

See China infront of you

See the canyons broken by cloud

See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out

See the Bedouin fires at night

See the oil fields at first light

And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth

After all the bloods the colour came out

It was a beautiful day

Don't let it get away

Beautiful Day.

And I'm glad that we've let it all out; something that I can't stop thinking about. That moment we had was indeed needed, some space away from the crazy allbeats world. We needed space, space for ourselves. We needed hugs, group hug because we haven't got that for quite awhile. Definitely a tearfest; but it was worthwhile. Emotional. Guilt. All mixed feelings to deal with in just one day.One.

Trash, garbage, all coming down in just a blink. A blink. What is that? Why is that? How is that? Dear God, please make us have faith to carry on no matter what challenges we are about to encounter. Faith. Trust; we needed Trust. Teamwork; to listen to each other. All this, and please, don't give up hope on us. We pulled you down, down and down. And we took a long time to bring all that back up.

Today, was a beautiful day. A day to remember, a day to forgive. Beautiful Day. Beautiful. With all the hearts, Iban Jiwarr.

Birthday mania.

2008-09-18T10:33:00.004+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday Kak Yaya!

Wow, you don't need presents either cause you have got wonderful gifts from the boyfriend. Anyway, hope that you're gonna enjoy your birthday this year as much as I did. Take good care of the cellphone, cause its effing nice. Don't be like me and dropped it in the toilet bowl! Aghh. So jyeah, moga Allah panjangkan umur & murahkan rezeki. Hee. Its just so great to have two sisters celebrating their birthdays day after another. (:

And now, I swear that my finger is swelling enormously. I accidentally hit on my vein during mass practice yesterday and its uber painful! I seriously felt like crying. Sakit gilerr lohhh! We worked out a new song, and I can't resist not playing but everytime I start doing that, it hurts big time! How ehh? ishkk. And dry run is like tommorrow. Imagine that. Sheesh.

I'm gonna go get Syaheeda's present today with Ichangkudin, ohmy, my bestfriend is turning 19 this Saturday. What should I get for her? Some help please. hee.

2008-09-16T23:10:00.016+08:00

Happy 27th Birthday Kak Wiwin. I know I've wished you on the wrong night causing you to have difficulties to sleep after that. But who cares. Hahaha. you don't need any presents because you already have wonderful gifts. tak fair, tsk. But jyeah, I still hope that you already feel old and get married asap. I want the whole bed to myself. Hahah. And oh my, I just realised that I've spent alot on your money. you're the best sister I've ever had! So moga Allah panjangkan umur & murahkan rezeki okay. Syg kabuchut! (:

Met up with 5 of the Dutyqz on Monday for fastbreaking. Wahh, rindu semua hilang okay. Hahaha.Dinner was great and dessert too. Thanks Abu! Heh. And they really have'nt change the slightest. I had to leave early to continue with my practice. Boohoo, but I'm still hoping that I can meet them on Syaheeda's birthday this weekend! Hee. oh sharks, I stil have yet to get her present. Alermak.

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So costume hunting was great, but I'm all shagged now. We managed to grab almost all the materials we need and wahh, happy okay! Hahaha. and wow, I love my white mask! Like Mask of Zorro.Hee. Cool you know.

Milley looks like a pimp man. an hell no am I gonna be your bitch. HAHA.

I have absolutely no idea what he's trying to do but I'm pretty sure his acting like an idiot. HAHA.

and omygahh, Milley looks ZacEfron-HOT here, but don't even go there; he'll be a total turnoff right after that. HAHA.

After that was practice session again, and that totally made me super tired. The dancer was suppose to come and see us, but dyr pon perangai Rosy jugak. Hahaha. so yeapp, friday is like rehearsal. gonna be a tiring week. Sheesh.

yussay says: Ahh sudahlah! "takterrr". *IjIj*. Hahaha. and me & milley are starting to communicate in bahasa Indonesia. fun, tough and freaking funny! Hahaha.

yussie : Gue sudah tidak lagik cintak sama Lohh!

Milley: Nama gue Ryan bukan Donnie!

yussie :Bunga api nya enggak adak.

Milley: Nama gue Ryan bukan Donnie, cinta. Ryan!

We make it sound like we were acting in the Indonesian telemovies.Irritating, yes. Tell me about it. Hahaha. but its sure fun! (:

2008-09-14T21:22:00.010+08:00

Geyland trip on Friday. Thank you yerr Hamid. (:

Oh and I fell in love with Osman's glasses. That explains the ridiculous face. Ngahaha. jyeahh, I was very exhausted and walking the whole of Geylang was Wow. and my lenses weren't in a good mood, causing my eye to turn bloodshed red and twitching. Sheesh.

Don't mind the quality, and our eyes looked like freaky vampires. Hahaha. and the fastbreaking was nasi beryani okay. I ate the whole thing without sharing. Dang, I must be that hungry. Hahaha. jyeahh, there were a lot of waitings ah. Some looking for capal lah, baju kurong lah, DengDeng lahh. hee. okayy, dengdeng was me. Hahaha.

But yeah, it was awesome too lah. heee. It was fun though I was so tired; but they keep making me laugh. (: Next up, meetings with dutyqz ahh. I can't stand Shamsul keep saying I'm *bubbling(back off last min) him. Sorry ahh. Hahaha.

Viva La Vida Behbehh.

2008-09-14T01:09:00.011+08:00

Ngahahaha. Wow,what a week. I'm super exhausted. I wanna cry and have ample rest. I'm tired, as in really drop dead tired. I've been out with so many people; or maybe too many people. See, I told you I'm a very busy woman. Hee.

1. The person who tag you is?
Milley.
2. Your relationship with him/her is?
IJ woowoot; & stepbrother ironically our friendship is growing. (:
3. Your five impressions of him/her?
Irritating, funny, bello, funny and understanding! (okay, no link)
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Take good pictures of me. Hee.
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
"Aku nak makan Yakotari/Tokoyaki" ngahahaha.
6.If he/she become your lover, you will?
HAHA,that's not gona be possible ehh. *IJ*
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
stop being sucha Bello.
8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?
No lah, he's so nice to me. (aisey!)
9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
He freaking stop taking my pictures, and don't allow me to disturb him. Hahaha.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is
Give him the Carebear since he's sucha a pain in the ass.

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Friday was definitely hot. Skipped class, and Syaz drove me & Milley around with his car! Freaking cool okayy. Wahh, mcm jakun abis cause' its my first time having a friend to drive a car. Wahh, happy seh! An awesome ride to town to search for my green top but to no avail. At least the transportation fee was free. Hee.

Ohh, paranomic setting. Awesome. (:

I had to follow Adamentium to Geylang after that; and it was hell tiring as you can imagine. Sheesh. I haven't grabbed the pictures from Hamid, I'll do it soon. hee. Hamid, GAMBAR! grrr.

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Performance was definitely powerful. BANG! Hee. I played a totally different instrument & I'm so glad that I managed to keep up with the beat in just half&hour or so. Hee. Dope im telling you. Dope. A trip to town again before the performance. and ohboy, school's food suck big time! eghhh. (x

green&yellow&black : Jamaica ehh! Hee.

And then the before performance pictures. I was freaking shaky; not because I was about to perform, but due to the crazy LionDance&DragonBalls. I just have this thing on them since young. Secaryyy.

It was definitely an awesome day, with awesome people&performance, though I can say we can do better next time. But it is sure an amazing experience. I wished we could have more shows before Reflections but nahh, it would be hectic and that would mean tight schedule. I can't live with that(yeah right, isn't that what i'm doing now?shessh.) Surdos greatgreat lah, but Conga is way doper! Hee.

and aper Milley? Yakotari; whatwhatwhat? you skept class?HAHA. I so love you lahh Milley! you're fun to make fun of. pfft. hahaha. and Syaz editted my photo; nicenice. Thankyou Syaz!. (x

The cover magazine. Cool pigg. Hee. I shall make this as my album cover. Hahaha. (:

2008-09-11T23:21:00.006+08:00

I literally skipped school yesterday & I found out that I skipped the wrong module! sheesh. But it was fun though. Spent the whole day at the library before going to TRCC. Gerek, we played counterstrike(our real life version) and 'main tidur2'. HAHAHA. gerek! (:

I would probably say that its just an oh-kay movie. There were'nt much actions; even if it did, it was all pretty slow. The chasings were like so never ending as they ran super slow. But it was okay. and I had whole lot of fun eating with IchangKuddin yesterday. Weehee. Neberchowie ehh. Hahaha.

I would firstly want to apologise the Dutyqz cause I didnt manage to turn up for the buka session. My cellphone was dead, and I can't seem to call anybody because all the contacts are saved in the cellie. Aghhhh. Sorry people. I really need a new cellphone bad. Syaz, nak I-phone! (jgn kasi Milly!). Hahaha.

Anyway, here you go Faiz.

1. The person who tag you is?

Faiz lah.

2. Your relationship with him/her is?

Alah alah, can I not answer?! Hahaha.

3. Your five impressions of him/her?

Irritating, funny, irritating, sexy(or what?!) & okay ah.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?

Accompanying me to buy ChickenBlackPepper bun in sem 1. HAHA. ingat faiz?! (:

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?

"how come you know him?!" then I said " He's my cousin." and he want "awwwwwwwww!!!!" HAHA. 29th aug ehh.

6.If he/she become your lover, you will?

HAHA,that's not gona be possible ehh. *IJ*

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?

Be more mature, and get a beard or something. HAHA.

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?

Not come to his house for Hari Raya or any family weddings. HAHA.

9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?

He freaking decided to quit IJ and not perform!

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is

Be the best C_ _ S_ _N on earth; take care of him & not see him get drunk! (wahh, sweet seh!)

11. Your overall impression of him/her is.

very simple, nice, touchy and so look like me can! Hahaha.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

Let me ask my IJs in the next Sheesha session!

13. The characters you love of yourself are.

Happy go lucky, irritating sometimes, and HOT! Hahaha.

14.On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are?

I dont hate myself, I'm a gift from God lahhh. (:

15. The most ideal person you want to be is.

My mommy!

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them.

Sayang korang! Weehee.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you pass to people that have blog only.

1. Syaz

2. Milly

3. Rozey

4.Yanie

5. Ninie

6. Fyzah

7. Hamid

8. Val

9. Fysah

10. Hazz

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?

Hahaha. Fyzah is number 6 again?! Relationship with who eh fyzah??Hahaha.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?

Female, female. Heh.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

Hahaha, eeee, noo I think. (:

21. What is no.2 studying about?

Crap like Basic Science, enterprise. yadayada.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

yesterday, I think. she buih ahh!

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?

Alternative & soul. I think.

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?

yeapyyeap.

25. Will you woo no.3?

Nooo. she Pembuih giler nyer! HAHA.

26. How about no.7?

HAHA, hamid??? no ah. ishh.

27. Is no.4 single?

This part, complicating. HAHA.

28. What is the surname of no.5?

Haha, SITI ehh?

29.What’s the hobby of no.10?

Watch movie and talk sarcastically! HAHA.

Okay dah Faiz, shoo now.

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I had buka session with Syaz, Milly & Yanie (I know, I'm so bad seh! but honestly sorry dutyqz!). Had a good talk about Music and all; dinner was extremely filling. And then, we had dessert! A treat from Syaz & Yanie. Weehee. Syg Mama & Papa! (:

Our treaters : Mama Hiphop and Papa Djembe. Weehee. xD

and Milley amek gambar nie not nice kan???? lalalalala. x)

Cik Joyah is not in the picture because she is too busy with CC stuffs. HAHA. Pembuih betol! (x

so yeahh, gerek seh! Hee. Dessert was definitely great! Weehee. yeay! only the fact that Milley is a BigFatJealousAss! Hahahah. To Geylang tml, kene ehh? Sheesh. But I need to get a green top how? Hehehe. x)

I Don't Know Why.

2008-09-09T23:10:00.003+08:00

I feel so insecure today; of which I Don't Know Why. I'm getting a little paranoid about things and all. Video-watching session was great, definitely. But I don't know. I just don't feel right. Maybe its the pms, the people, the day, the weather? Hell, I really don't know. I'm sorry, but I think we really need to start working seriously now. I know we are done with our song, but it doesn't have to just stop there. yeah, maybe we are too confident cause we get so many compliments and all, but guys, that doesn't make us the best.

I'm not saying that we have to be greedy about being on the top. you know, we worked hard & all the effort we've put in can never be on a downhill. There are seriously thousands of things for us to work with, and I'm getting abit panicky now. what if we couldn't finish all the work on time? what if one of us start to drift away, and decided that IJ is no longer fun? What if? What if?

I honestly think that there is a limit to everything. We can have fun, play around and go crazy. But when its time for work, its time for work. Get a little paranoic when we're working. Get serious. I don't know if ya'll feel what I'm feeling ahh. But its time to take things seriously. This isn't a way to just lay back and fly kites. We have to get this tight. I'm just hoping that y'all understand. and hopefully everything's gonna be okay.

Love you guys, much. Effing much. Iban Jiwerrr.

Pizza Harpoon.

2008-09-08T23:33:00.006+08:00

It was sure sleepy during lessons. I've drooled one to many times, seriously. I was really praying that 430 came in quickly just so I can meet my IbanJiwarrr people. and yes, I got all hyped up when I met them; though we had to wait for an hour. redep betol ah. so yeah, meanwhile I practiced a few solos on the conga. and boy is it fun. I crapped most of the time, but it fit well with the song I guess. weehee.

We ordered pizza for fast-breaking, cause they were craving for cheesy pepperoni. and oh wow, it was a pretty good fiest before we start working on our songs again. We made changes here & there and did some recording. It was our first time through, so it sounded a lil shaky. and after recording, we have videos on Crapps as usual; interviews and just crapps lahh. and jyeah was it hell funny. Haha. weyykid.

Oh honestly, I'm starting to think that I'll live in suffocation if I don't attend any IJ practices. That is definitely the main reason of me coming to school. A lil self-motivation for me to drag my feet to school. and yes, we actually prayed that we'll stay like this for like god-knows-when after we finished the food. AMINaminAMIN ya rabbal al-Amin.

and I just love the picture above, Cousinly love. Ahhhh. (:

AminAminAmin. I'm gonna see them again tommorrow; to work on the movements and lyrics. and to see the viddy we recorded earlier on from Syaz's camcorder. Something to look forward too again! ahhhhhh. x)

2008-09-07T22:13:00.006+08:00

Wow, I had a great fast-breaking session with the 677 people. I didn't intend to go at first because I was totally exhausted spending my noon painting the bedroom wall with the sis. Maya & Amino couldn't make it so I figured I'm not gonna go too. I received a call in the late afternoon, and the guys made me come! They were really good at it. Sheesh. I tried making an excuse that the eating place is too far, which was definitely unreasonable. haha.

The pictures on Haziq feeding the two people totally signifies how he treats his girlfriend & brother. Totally differently. Hahaha. It was his birthday; and he was surprised that his girlfriend actually came with a cake in her hand. Very sweet. Its all Min's plans, he very kecoh lahh. and I can't help laughing with his & Zat's pick up line, "ai baybay, wanna buy an M1 line today?" (:

It is just so ironic that after staying in admiralty for like almost 11 years, I wasn't even close to them though we stayed near each other. Except of course some of them were my primary schoolmates. But we were'nt even close;and the scary part is that they would surely know my parents. and that they know exactly where I stayed, my unit number & all. so they can use that to threaten me if I insist on meeting them. -_-

But they are definitely fun people lah. Thanks to Maya & Amino for bringing me to get to know them. Hahaha. and yeah korang, beban aku dah habis, good luck for the both of you tommorrow eh. Haha. So yeap, I'm looking forward to more outings with them. Weehee. x)

yeay, Tribal practice tommorrow. The only reason I'm looking forward to school. Hee.

Willing

2008-09-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

Willing; just willing is the only word for today.

Syaz had his band, Stereowave to the finals. He invited us to come and support him a few days back. We said we couldn't go, but actually we just intended to give him a surprise. So we told Syaz that we all couldn't make it; he understood. We even wrote on our pms that we were sorry(that's because I asked them to). HAHA. and who wouldn't be as sad as Syaz if you were in his shoes. yeapp.

So I met Milly & Yanie at Cineleisure, and ran away from Syaz when we saw him coming to buy food. Uber funny. Waited for Liyana, Wan, Fai, Faiz & Faizal to check out spots for fastbreaking. To Lucky Plaza only to find the foodplace no longer exists; then to Far East. We only gotta eat at 815, and had to rush off back to Scape by 845. So just wonder how fast we finished our food.

and here's the willing part; we were walking at the streets when it rained heavily. So we ran all the way. yeahs, All The Way, cause we were afraid that Syaz would already be performing. So we were drenched wet by the time we got there. See that? That's love baby. All of us were freaking cold. Seriously, it was something so sweet we did for him. Hee. That totally shows how much we love and care for you; and that we're willing to support you.
Look at how drenched we were. x)

"Next up, Stereowave!". All of us stood up, got infront of the stage and cheered 'SYAZ!!!!!!' He looked soooo surprised that all he can do is smile;as in wide smile. He did well. (:

Hugging time! weeheee. x)

and his band was the 1st runner up! Alhamdullilah. Hee. after his performance, he came to us and said in Malay, "I'm touched; I didn't think you guys would come cause y'all said y'all can't make it." Haha, well Syaz, we'll go far if its to support one another. and he then surprised me with a yellow CareBear! Weehee. Cause I wanted it so bad when he showed to me last night. Thankyou so much Syaz! yeayme! x)

So yeahh, I love my Tribal group so much. heee. And yes Syaz, we are proud of you. Good Job! :) Go IbanJiwer! Hee. xD

2008-09-04T21:58:00.003+08:00

I was 5 minutes close to late for class. I have no idea why, but I had a hard time getting off bed. And my way to school was definitely moody & sleepy. Anyways, I didn't realise that I have so many friends until today. Haha! Seriously, I'm a very busy woman now. Hazirah called me down during the first break to meet with the 34ks. I didn't wanna go at first, cause I wasn't done with my work but I came anyway. and oh wow, there is sure alot of things to talk about. hee. I miss disturbing all my 34k people lah! Boohoo.

Oh and Yatt is so dead for slapping my head! Sesungguhnyer aku berpuase. Hahah. Perangai gondol; act as if he's not afraid of me. Wait till I see him for practice, after buker. He'll scream out loud with my awesome pinching. Tak brani ah luu. Bahahaha. x)

Ahhh, don't MINDS them. HAHA. (inside joke)

Second break was with Mill-MINDS and Nin-MINDS. Similarly, I didn't wanna go too, but I was too stressed up with ppt. I had to lie down cause I was super tired. Seriously! And me and Mill had the urge to pack our bags and leave, but no, we figured that all devils are being tied up and so doing that will make us the Devil. huahuahua.

And bumped into Fad & Huzaifah in the library;which they actually asked for my help about html codes. Haha. Cute couple lah. Fast-breaking was with Zuldy, Faris & Ichankudiin! Haha. It was all unplanned. And boy, did we have a feast. I ate to my heart's content & I was totally happy. We didn't order much, thankfully,else we'll be wasting all the money. No pictures because I was too busy eating. Hee.

Tommorrow's friday and I'm having enterprise I think. TGIF, I hope. I'm looking forward to a splendid and well-planned breakfasting session with soo many people! Plus Monday's group practice. (:

2008-09-03T23:01:00.002+08:00

School's in and its already the first day of the semester. New faces, new environment; everything so new. I was pretty contented about myself today of which I have no reason why. Maybe because I had plenty of praises from people. hee. Class was exceptionally fine, of which I hope it'll get better as time goes by. I received a compliment from the faci for doing such a great job in the worksheet question; which is like so NOT me. hahaha.

But the class was awkwardly too quiet, and I didn't have the guts to actually be too outspoken. Let time run it through my bone slowly. hahaha. My group was fine too. Workable. (:

Practice was exhausting as you can imagine, because I'm still in the weaky-dushy mood. I really can't run from the fact that I'm actually using 'I am fasting' as an excuse to say I'm all tired. But honestly, practice is getting so challenging in the Ramadhan days.

Putting exhaustion aside, all of that was being kicked off, when I received compliments about me doing well in Conga and Bongo. Hahaha. not to be arrogant or anything, but I figured that that is actually a ticket for me to drive and strive harder. and my group's showcase just now was so upbeat, and was uber messy. Probably we were just tired, or maybe just a lil too overconfident or maybe 'We're fasting'. Oh there we go. Our bad. (:

I've refreshed some of the notes from Philip and Zaini, the changes we have to make in musicianship and choreography and projection. the new rythm for bells; (oh wow, I can't believe I really paid attention. Haha!) But yeahh, when you think that you're all ready, there are other thousand things to work on. So right now, Iban Jiwer, lets get everything tight. Everything. We work hard, and now we need to work Smart.

Done.

2008-09-02T23:53:00.005+08:00

It was my group practice again, and only God knows how much I was looking forward to it. It started off with waiting for the other members to reach the session room, and we lazed around playing each other's instruments. Then, Syaz came off with an idea that we change instruments and like duh, it was so funny. Wan was playing the Syaz's djembe, and was the one giving the timings for break. We started calling him Syaz & then it all started. Us calling each other's names according to the instruments we played. hahaha. We impersonated each other and were very good at that! Haha. And I loved Shaz's impersonation of Faiz's laughter! So exactly the same! Bahahaha. :)

Recording was good, but Yanie's quality of recorder was pleah. We even recorded the new remix of a few Hari Raya songs which like so fun and funny! bahaha.

Then, made a trip down to town to collect my sick handphone with Yanie,Syaz, Rosy and Milly. I was really praying very hard that it might actually work, but I was so sad when the person told me that it can no longer do that. and that I have to change the motherboard which may cost close to 500 dollars. Like oh cmon, I would rather add up a few more hundreds and get a new cellphone. yes, correct.

Fast-breaking was at Shaw house and all of us were having this stomach-headache and we started farting & farting. Bahahaha. Terok lah.

Poor Syaz, he was so afraid of heights, and you know how high the escalator at Shaw house can be.

School's in like tommorrow. Wish me luck. :)

2008-08-31T23:30:00.010+08:00

I attended Mega Perdana; with 15 groups competing. I don't know, but I somehow think that almost all the groups made obvious mistakes. Probably they were just too nervous or overconfident. the oh-so-long waiting for the program to start actually caused me to doze off for a lil while; I had only 4 hours of sleep due to my terrible coughing-mania in the late night. Sheesh.

"Jambol oh jambol, kenapa tak bersuara?!!!"

CDM was 2nd in line. and yeahh, I totally think they did thier best. Andika Kencana's steps were uber awesome! heh. CDM ended too fast & I know that the next thing I have to wait for is the forever awesome Keris. iyeahhh. heee. and you know they have the best of everything; the steps, the juara & karut && of course the percussion. like duhh, ABANG played the rebana. what more can you ask for? hehehe.

ahh, and then there were pictures with lovable people. weehee. suker suker! xD

Emilia nak jugak! haha. takpe kasi chan. hoho.

Ichangkudin!!!

Cucu Mat Yoyo! Weehee. xD

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and I sent my Sony cellphone to the hospital today. i'm still praying that it can work fully after repairing. sheesh. love you baby cellie! After that, had ayam penyet at Lucky Plaza; wonderful as always. Met Hamid & Osman & Fahmy at esplanade to catch baybeats, but figured that the bands were so uber boring. Sat down, laughed & laughed & laughed. hahaha. okay, pictures.

Osman saw white Sir Stamford Raffles : aku kasi kau 3 jerr. kurangajar, aku berdiri sini sampai puteh, kau dudok tutop mater. HAHAHA.

Ichangkudin : DIY ehh Man??

Osman : DIY ape sehh?

Ichangkudin : Do it yourself bodoh!

Osman : Oh aku tak tau, aku tau DU-IT.

Fahmy: DU-IT ape sehh?

Osman : Duit bodoh!

HAHAHA. that was totally funny. Osman were all embarrassed and then he like kenakan org lain. Bahahaha. and fahmy, his dumb dumb still bertepek! haha. okayy. Hamid was only there laughing & taking pictures with eye crossed. hahaha. and the funny part, he used a spoilt camcorder to take our pictures, and when we need to preview it, he has to listen and find. Hahaha. nevermind. i dont think y'all understand. hahaha.

Okay, now there goes my weekends. fasting month and prayers; weeehee. Im excited! xD

2008-08-30T00:39:00.005+08:00

Omg. I really need to blog about today. Something freaky happened to me. and yeahh, its SUPER freakyy that I can't stop thinking about it. Me and him, has something, but I'm not gona share cause its so embarassing & we're gonna keep it down low. For the three of you who already knew, just bring it down okay? please. Im begging. Sheesh.

Anyways, practice was super fun today, especially when I have my lovable Tribal people around! Teehee. I actually don't see the reason of why we have the dance studio for an hour, cause I think we totally changed the movements and all only after that. and boy, can we be anymore cooler? hahaha. I love my Tribal group lahh!

We had a loooooooongggg waiting time after that we were almost like mashed potatoes discussing about movements, entry, exiting, budget, costume, effects. Hahaha. But it was fun though. and we grabbed pictures. beatiful picture again. ahhhh. fresh.

Okay, I know its cool and yeahh, my Tribal group rocks my sockets. I'm really happy that we are so close now. hee. and we had a mini B-boy battle just now which is like so random. hahah. But it was definitely entertaining. gerek lah. you see, only my people can do crazy things when there's freaking free time. okay, I'm beat. xD

2008-08-28T12:06:00.008+08:00

Ah, coolness. I've been doing so busy these days with practices. Having so, it was definitely enjoyable to chill on Sheesha session. Definitely, definitely memorable. I wanted to wait a lil longer for Syaz to send me pictures, but since I have itchy fingers, I can't resist but to make do just the ones I currently have.

So it was on the Tuesday after the group practice session. Sanjay came to tutor me, and that totally lead to a brand new upbeat song for our last one. We worked hard, & played hard too. I'm telling you, its really something that bring us so close together.

I just so love this shot of Wan. Awesome. Milly gets the credit.

And jyeah, adapted from Nins; Boys gossip too you know.

Now pictures on our trip to Haji Lane and the oh-so-long waiting for Syaz, Rosey and Yanie. pfft. We had to entertained ourselves with poker cards and murdering. And I love these shots. Ultimate coolness. I wanna get a Cammie like Milly's too. x)

you know.you always save the best for last. these next two, are my favourite. totally photographic. I don't know what makes that picture-fect; the hair, the pose, the place, the people? ahhh, just total awe-ness.

and presenting to you.

There were'nt any pictures on our Sheesha session, cause we were too busy playing murder-confessions game. That's when the bond gets so tight, that I can't stop thinking about the day we sat at the Mosi, in the dark, taking turns to speak, and listening to one another's confessions. I'm not sure if we were just so high on smoke, or its just something that all of us wanted & needed to share. it was, spectacular. Very.

and it all ended with our hands on top of one another's, promising that lips to be sealed the second we left the place. and the most noteworthy moment, was when I gave a shout "Group hug!" ,and our bodies came so close to one another hugging each other tightly.

Now I'm only left to say, that I'm starting to love my group soo much, that I wished this day never ended. and that, I hope no one spoils everything, everything we've built. go Tribal! x)

tuesday, 26th Aug, a day, a moment to remember. Happy Belated Birthday, Azz btw.

2008-08-25T23:51:00.005+08:00

Additional practice was slacky cause only a handful turned up. I was supposed to go for the Eureka briefing with yuhtee and we were very late. And check it, we got mixed up with the venue of the briefing. We ended up sitting around gossiping. It was cool though, cause we have so much to talk about and nothing of our sort. yeah, tell me about it. hahaha. So yuhtee basically came down all the way from home to school just to sit down with me and gossip. Hahaha. twiney mahh. teehee.

I went back to practice only to watch Drumline that Syaz projected. Hahaha. That show really awed me no matter how many times I've watched it. yeapp. after that was lepak session with those who came for the practice. and the 3 clowns were the usually lame-ass entertainers that kept us laughing. and they were already talking about fasting month or worst, Hari Raya. -___-

And it was effing funny, definitely.

My schedule's totally tight this week. and my fever hasn't been going down abit! sheesh.

~~Monday : additional practice.~~

Tuesday: group practice cum costume-searching cum chilling out.

Wednesday : practice

Thursday : meeting my oh-haven't-met-up-for-ages Abu.

Friday : rehearsal.

Saturday : Mega Perdana.

Sunday : either free, or terawih-ing. teehee. x)

Okay, my only entry without pictures. I'll update them soon. Awkward, but I'm beat.

2008-08-25T00:39:00.007+08:00

Awesome awesome Sunday. Lunch with family was definitely filling. Like duh, I don't have to rummage my purse and calculate the bill. Always an advantage when you have elder sister winning awards. But hey, the last time I checked, its been ages since I paid for a family meal. Hahaha. so? it doesn't make a difference does it? The brother was so busy looking for markers in town, which made a great disappoinment of not joining us. -____- Boring ahh luu Bruuu. bahahaha.

Caught Kallang Roar; interesting but pretty slow. Very motivational, for guys who sucked in football. Hahaha. and the guy acting as Dollah Kassim was so funny. I can't help laughing just seeing his face. I thought daddy might like the show, but he wanted to get home early; wasn't feeling to well. so tsk. but at least he enjoyed the food. yeay-mie!

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Made a trip to Taman Warisan to catch the launching of Hari Raya streetlights in the evening cause I almost died of boredom. Performances by famous-ass people like Hady Mirza, Aliff Aziz, blablabla. It was raining so heavily okayy. Overall, I feel that the ones making the show so entertaining is Mark Lee & Suhaimi Yusof as emcees and Sleeq's performance. I don't quite listen to Malay songs but ironically I kinda like the songs from Sleeq. Awkward confession. pleahh.

and check it, I actually got excited when the Sleeq kiddies came off stage and was totally in front of me. I don't know why I got so excited, and don't ask me why. and its times like this when I need a camera bad. tsk. okay dah diam. Hahahaha.

And thanks for showing the videos in the train lah okay. Uber scary, crazy and funny. Hahaha. and I can't stand the part you wanted to like tickle the man's balls. So pervertic lahh. Ishhk. Anyways, the Indian food must be so delicious right? Like duhh. Okay now.

2008-08-24T11:17:00.007+08:00

I had an amazing evening with the fireworks. It was utterly beautiful. I just love the moment when it would rise up and crack in the sky. A very awesome feeling that I don't mind having it over and over again. I wouldn't even have to grab pictures on it because it just keep reminiscing vividly in my mind. Its this feeling that I have been wanting to have for such a long time. The feeling of being soo awed and mesmerising. Its just wonderful.

and why is it that I'd keep thinking about you, when you're long gone. why oh why. get out of my mind for once. sheesh. good thing I didnt fall for you. Sh, your gone.

a family lunch later; i'm famished. okay, enjoy your sundays everybody. Love you,cyg.

2008-08-21T22:12:00.006+08:00

Pictures from my group practice on tuesday. We finished the song, or so to say.

Syaz still owes me more of our photoshoot, or so it is called. and Rosy, my video. heehee. I'm so much looking forward to come down for practices, I have no idea why. Probably, my ass is growing fat at home! oh why why why do holidays have to be such a bore? pleah.

So wednesday practice was okay too. I almost died coughing. Had a mini show-what-our-group-have-done-so-far; which is equals to madness. Syaz walked me home cause he needed some fresh air & that we so stay nearby each other.

Anyways, I've been down with fever for the past few days, and I have to forgo one thing that I was so excited about, the Beach. eghhh. I'm so sorry Sakinah and Dawn. I was just too sick that I can't get myself off the bed. So uncool! I've got so many people asking me out today, but I couldn't even decide or too weak to decide. Therefore, I had to let go of all the plans. haish. I wanna cry! uweeek. ):

I'm gonna be uber busy for the whole of next week. Shesh. and I really wanna go to the Beach, bad. haiyoh. Fasting month's in a week, I'm super excited. oh the breaking fast together with peoples, ooooo I so love it. Hee. To geylang and all. Aiyo, biler mau rayer?? x)

amino and maya : Perangai tkmo ckp-main-golf-sendiri-padahal2 ehh. Hahaha.

Will upload pictures on tapestry soon, if I feel like it. Ocho ocho! xD

2008-08-18T23:01:00.006+08:00

It was definitely a great gossip session with peoples today. And believe it or not, we talked about the same person. xD

I got uber pissed because the Mum was making a whole big racket of me not doing the chores. Sheesh. Its uber unfair. My sisters didnt help her out. They just came home and eat. ROARRR! Who said that being the youngest is so cool? -_- Looking on the bright side, today was definitely better than last night. Yesterday sucks big time! pleah. Teehee.

So anyways, I met up with Fyzah machaa in the late afternoon, just to get my Apek shoes at old woodlands. Told the whole story to her and she told hers. Look at the moon eh machaa. Haha. So dinner was shroom burger at KFC, and as usual, I finished the food first because I was totally famished.

Then, met up with Amino and Maya and their friends! or rather, my friends. Bahaha. The world is seriously uber small. Nah, I think its just Singapore. Hahaha. About three to four of them were my primary school mates. and omg! Farhan Malek lah siow. My primary school closest friend. Wahh, dapat jumpe then bbual mcm tk ingat dunia. HAHA.

And funken gerek okay to talk about the same person eh Amino & Maya. Bahaha. Korg perangai tkmo _ _ _ _ ehh! (fill in the blanks yourself) HAHA. Ah? Ahh? AAAahhhh. HAHA. okay shuddup yussie. so anyways, I only have three pictures. okay go! xD

Hee. So today was definitely better than yesterday. Definitely! Thankyou BigBig to the three of you. Sayang korg. *hugg* Hee. Let's have more gossip session soon. And Maya, citer wayang hantu! Go check it out. xD

2008-08-16T21:05:00.014+08:00

I suddenly realised that I took alot of pictures with Haiqal, I wonder why. Haha. Okay, DPDP. The one on bottom left, is uber funny. We act like a couple, me = the guy, & haiqal = the girl. Hahaha. & like always, I had Akmal's hat 'floating'. xD

Yeay! Like finally. Pictures pictures pictures on the pizzas with 34ks & bbq! Suker suker! Thankyou Zuzu and Azz. *hug* x)

The pizza meal was hellova crazy. I've got a 'pregnant lady' tummy at the end of the day. Sheesh. Haha. And I've been trying to plan for the Sentosa trip, but I have doubts that not many can make it, or don't even want to make it. Fine, I'll go there by myself. Chey, merajok ehh. Haha.

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Beats Encore's BBQ in school on Wednesday after practice. Not many turned up. -_-

I like the shot on Maman on the last bottom left. I find it nice, just that I personally think the ketchup bottle should be removed. Haha. I don't wanna elaborate further. It might turn me on. (eww, Noooo).Oh yes, I had to do thousands of forfeits just because I sucked big time in the games. And it was all Baton-ass but fun. I was lucky that somebody didn't mention ~~'freaky night : $12.65'.~~phew. Bahaha. xD

And right now, I simply can't believe that I'm decomposing at home. -_- I was supposed to go to the Beach with Syaheeda today, but had to forgo the plan because initially the Mum wanted me to be at the mosque. It was not until afternoon, that she suggested I should stay at home to 'look after the house'. Angry angry! grrrr. Btw, I received a call when I was in Ikea, and I'm going to California fitness this thursday. Like finally, I can lose some weight. x)

Don't ask me what I'm doing now cause it will definitely murder your ears and eyes. xD Okay fine, I was browsing through some videos until I saw this : memory flashbacks ey?, Awkward. Hahaha.

Now, stop laughing at me. Let me go see more old videos and laugh to myself. Hahaha. pathetic yussie. Somebody please bring me out soon. Sheesh. xD"Now don't you worry about my boyfriend, the boyfriend name is Decerino. I don't want him, couldn't stand him" Haha. do the dance people. Dont be shy. HAHAHA. okay bye.

2008-08-16T10:53:00.003+08:00

Oh wow. Its only the fourth day of holidays, and I'm already feeling the bore. pfft. I seriously have no idea what I have been doing lately. The mum was definitely much happier because her house is now ultimately clean. Thankyou yussie. Haha. and due to that, I've got some big cash from the Mum. booyah!

With all the money in the world, what more can you ask for right? Shopping spree lerr. Duhhh. I tired doing alone-shopping & it was super great. Seriously, y'all should try it one day. It actually opens up your mind to have to deal with only your own opinions. No *eww, that doesn't suit you* from friends. Hehe. But it might get a lil tough, when you're indecisive like me. xD

Unfortunately, im not a big spender, so I'll usually keep the money till I've found what I really Really like. And to even buy something that I like so much is just so 'is it really worth it?'. Haha. But I do not give a damn, cause as long as I'm happy, then I'm HAPPY. Teehee.

Anyways, the song EasyWay is like immovable in my head, thankyou Faiz. Bahaha. I kept playing it while doing the alone-shopping. It was so relaxing really. So HichangKudin! Haha. xD

Aight, I'm going to Ikea with the Mum and Dad. I'm still waiting for Zuzu BE to send me the pictures on BE's bbq the other day. Zuzu,cepat! Weehee.

ps: Thankyou for even finding the time to spend with me. Though, walking in the hot sun was soo 'dropping your image'. Bahahaha.

2008-08-12T10:43:00.000+08:00

Lunch on Monday with people. I freaking love the Anney shirt! Thankyou so much. xD

I skipped the last day of school today just to have a huge and tiring fun day with my friends. Breakfast was at ang mo kio though I was late by an hour. I had a sleepy start, as always. But it was just so great that they actually waited for me though I received naggings when I arrived. Haha.

After breakfast, we wandered around like freaking lost souls till by noon, we decided to have a bowling session. And trust me, it was super fun. Or maybe that's just because I got in third. Weehee.

I find the shot above so Awwwsome.

Look at the girl go. xD

Gerald discoverd a little theory about me bowling. He figured that when I was about to bowl, I would swing my body to the left. I'm not sure how to explain it but it was definitely Yussie's Style. HAHA. and Gerald tried doing the Yussie's style and he got a strike okay! While I did it and got spares 3 times in a row. Hahaha.

After bowling was pizza session with 34ks. I was drop dead full, I swear. I haven't got the chance to grab the pictures from Azz. So yeahh, i'll upload it as soon as I have it. I'm pretty sure that I'm so gonna miss this whole bunch. HAHA. I know, I have been saying that for the previous entries but I can't help it! Sheesh.

Made a trip to Bedok after that only to find the freaking bus to breakdown in the highway. -_- Rushdan was in the same bus and its just so uber cool lah kn. I mean, this is a very rare occasion. HAHA.

Sentosa okayy people? Gogogo! Weehee. xD

okay bye.

2008-08-11T22:58:00.003+08:00

This was taken during Culture's module! x)

Its the very last day for Culture's module. Aww, it's just so sad that it ended so soon. My favourite module ever! Sheeshh. Lunch was with three-four-K peoples. I funkeningly can't upload the pictures because my cellphone happen to drop in the toilet bowl at the wrong time, wrong place, Wrong word, Wrong day. All so WRONG! Roar!!!

So practice was okay, except the fact that I suddenly lost the sense of rhythm which is causing me to be unsure on when to come in for my part. eghhh. and its freakingly tiring, and like always, I feel super sleepy! Haish. Next time, I'm gonna need to bring some toothepicks to shuff it at my eyelids, just like Mr Bean. Weehee. But its gonna be uber painful.

and yes Hiqal. DPDP! "Don't Panic, Don;t Panic". Hahaha. Its suppose to be "different people, different perspectives" okayy. Aww, I'm freakingly gonna miss all of you. Ishhk. Alah! Tk nak tukar class lahh! Alah alah alah ALAH!! sheessh. x)

dah lah, my cell is still not reviving now. I wanna cry! ): Baby, please wake up from the dead-no-colour-screen postition of yours. I love you still! Boohoo. you're my bestest Birthday gift, I really can't live without you. So baby, please wake up okayy. I've got numbers stored inside. I need to call so many people! Please! Uwekkk. ):

ps: HAHA! kene Cekop or whatt!

Oh, and for all the pisang's who laughed at me for dropping my cell in the bowl, Thanks Ehhh! grrr. Hahaha. okay bye.

2008-08-10T11:01:00.006+08:00

These are just random pictures that I SUDDENLY feel like uploading. I have no idea why and dont even bother to ask.

I've been feeling kinda confused this days. Maybe I think too much, or just take things too heavily. I don't know. I've been feeling crazy like I've been missing you soo much. and why is that? I've been thinking alot Alot about you though i'm always out busy-ing. Now I'm just left with just a question; is this Love already? Cause if it is, its starting to hurt. and why the funkening hell am I feeling this way? sheesh. Or maybe, I just feel like;

Lying close to you

Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

And I just want to stay with you

In this moment forever, forever and ever

Cause I just Don't Wanna Miss a Thing.

Oh and Happy Anney the 2nd. yeapp.

Ps: I freakingly miss you, much.

2008-08-07T11:34:00.015+08:00

Yesterday's after practice pictures.

So practice was like forever Okay. I'm getting use to the fact that my fingers are 'known' to the swelling. I am looking forward to my group session more because its freaking exciting. Oh well, but the finale song is getting more funken everytime. Shaite. Hee. My group had a mini discussion about costumes and stuffs plus a lil' movement here and there. I was turning super bored that I started doing a little dance on the comfy seat. Crazy? I know.

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Anyway, today was the last day of Science module and ironically, I found it to be very fun! Or maybe, that's just because my dearest faci gave us a huge pizza treat. That's just totally because not many of us turn for class. There were two teams and only one presentation. How wicked is that? Weehee.

The pictures of writings on the whiteboard was what I wrote for my faci and the other one were just orders for the treat in F language which is super funny! HAHA. I know I'm sweet, and its so impressive that faci was able to read it out in proper English! wahaha. and don't mind the horrible handwriting. pfft!

And these are all pictures of my closest friends that I have in class. I so love the fact that we met each other. They are the best ever. They were the ones that always brainwashed me to skip classes but were also the ones to always make me smile. So skipping classes with them is so worth it everytime. Sayang korang lah! Its super sad to like be leaving them so soon. Boohoo. I hate the fact that I need to introduce myself all over again for next semester. Alahh, tk nk tukar class lahh! tk suker tk suker! Hmph. Whatever it is, I hope we would still stay in contact no matter what. Furthermore, school's so big and its so rare to be bumping to each other. Alah, alah, alah, ALAH! ):

ps: and its not white okey, its Purple! Bahaha. wah daring sehh! x)

2008-08-04T16:04:00.001+08:00

Happy 3rd Birthday Nurul Aryani sayang!
Weehee. She's uber cute lah can. Hehe. And was so happy to get that CareBear from us. Hehe.

Anyways, had two mini celebrations on Sunday. For Aryani and Fyzah lah ehh. Heh. Wawa and herself came to my place at night to finish up her brochure thingy. Yeapp. And i freaking had nothing to give her lah can. So i decided to just get her a slice of coffee cake with a single candle. I dont know how it works lah but she was like "aww, so sweet!" weehee.

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So practice was okey, we still got a lot of things to brush up on. Nevermind, it takes patience and alot of time ( of which we are running out of). But anyways, I figured that if we put our heart to it, we're gona do great. Okey, like what is this? Motivational talk or what. Haha.

So anyways, a $12.65 just to do that? Wahaha. that was really something. I mean who would even give $0.65? hahah. funny lah and yet freakyyishh! Eghhh. Two months eh, bahahaha. Overall, it was a great night (not the fact that I got Oohhs-lalas!) HAHA. and you've got yourself a secret admirer! Cool or what! Wootwoot. xD

Oh3, before I forget, I need to leave this portion of the page to thank Syahidah. For editting my oh-so-greeny-yellow-favourite desktop! Ohmygod, really, its so beautiful lah can! And she managed to do it in one night (though she said she can't). Thankyou soo much Darling! weehee.

Ps: This is beautiful. It's Never a rainy day in London because with you, everything falls into place. xD

2008-08-02T14:12:00.002+08:00

Happy Freaking 19th Birthday Raffizah Bte Ahmad!

19 or what Machaaa! Haha. Counting the days we know each other right, its like what?11 freaking years lah can! I've seen your boobs growing from small to big man. Sampai TAF Club masok and kuar samer2! And and, when i fell you were still talking to Yourself! Great Friendship with you lah ehh.Wahaha. Anyways, hope you had fun lah okey. And enjoy life not to the fullest. Half enjoy, half ingat Tuhan. Bahaha. So happy growing old you Old Fart! Weehee. xD

The picture stop it eh fyzahh?. Haha!

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Made a trip to town again, with Shining star.Weehee. Walked awhile, saw the performance and left for fireworks. Hee. And yeapp, syaheeda made new friends lah kan? Hee. And to you, don't worry you face is not inside the NDP book. Haha, okay sorry!.

And and and, the fireworks were awesome lah can! Sheesh. But like abit only. Me not happy. pfft! Nehmind, nehmind. Heh. xD So after catching that, met Kak Lin & her freaking-rich boyfriend. Hee. Had dinner at Lau Pa Sat and the band was freaking cool or what lah can! Haha. And the songs they played were uber retro but super nice lah. It was definitely entertaining.

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And abang Pipit has this wonderful theory about the 3 different types of Coca-cola which is so incredible yet confusing. Haha, but anyways, at least I managed to differentiate the differences. Heh. So yeap, I had fun overall SETELAH sumernyer berlaku. *inside joke* HAHAHA.

ps: Please get well soon. and keep on Smiling! Hee. xD

2008-08-01T12:18:00.009+08:00

Chats with these three guys. Super funny okey. Hahaha. They typed the same thing together and I did the same thing to the three of them. Haha. We said ily to one another and ended up with ILY Batman Forever. Like wth! Hahaahaa. So anyway's Fika asked me to do this, so why not give it a try lah kan.

1. The person who last tag you is:

"ME" as at 3.12pm.

2.Your relationship with him/her is:

errr, *kening naik2*. hahaha.

3.Your first five impression on him/her:

-short!

-cute

-fierce

-short

-and Short!

4.the most memorable thing he/she has done for you:

adding me at msn!

5:the most memorable thing he/she had said to you:

"go Capoiera with me in August."

6.if he or she becomes your lover, you will:

HAHAHA. close my mouth with two hands.

7. if he or she becomes your lover,thing he/she has to improve on is:

Nothing, I think. hee.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:

Take his mallet and hit his head. hee. (sorry!)

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:

he stopped making me laugh, i think.

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is:

Alaa. I don't know luhh! Even if i know, im not gona tell. HAHA. x)

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:

Cool, hot ,snorty, adorable and SHORT!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?:

I don't know. Funny and irritating.

13. The characters you love of yourself are:

I can move my eyes left to right quickly when i'm blushing.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:

I don't hate myself. I'm a gift from God.Wahaha.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:

My Mother. . my mother,she loves me.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

Thankyou, love you all. weehee.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you

1) Syaheeda

2) Hisyam

3) Izwan

4) Fyzah

5) Sham

6) Yuhtee

7) Azz

8) Faiz

9) Syaza

10) Abu

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?

Nope. I think so ahh. kn yuhtee?? Haha.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?

Female syg.

20.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

Wahaha. Kalau dah jodoh lah kn. But confirm kecoh.

21. What is no.2 studying about?

Automotive thingy.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

yesterday! like its been ages!

23. What kind of music does no.8 like?

Ska i think.

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?

Yeapp. And he's Akmal's friend okey. Small world.

25. Will you woo no.3?

err, hahaha. entah. Done. x)

26. How about no.7?

Yeap. She's hot! x)

27. Is no.4 single?

Fyzah??! haha.

28. What is the surname of no.5?

Surname? entah ehh, Malays don't use surname, so probably Haniz.

29. What 's the hobby of no.4?

Sleep and fall in love. haha.

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?

Noo, they always argue at coffeeshop and so happy to leave each other when they're in the train. Haha!

31. Where is no.2 studying at?

ITE Ang Mo Kio

32. Talk something casually about no.1:

I just love her alot, more than anything. hee.

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?

gilerr.

34. Where does no.9 live at?

Alermak, sorry this one i'm not sure.

35. What colour does no.4 like?

Purple! chey, confident.

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friend?

They will be. hee.

37. Does no.1 have any pets?

Nopey.

38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

heee. no comment.

39. What is no. 10 doing now?
Selling donuts at Tiong Bahru.

Hahaha. Gona meet syaheeda later. hee. Update again soon. Weehee.

2008-07-31T22:37:00.002+08:00

Aight, yesterday's pictures for the movie with peoples. Teehee. The JiggyJig cap is uber cool okey Mal. x)

Oh my, ohmygahh. I have no idea what's gone into me this week. I've been cutting school short for three days in a row now. Sheesh. But I stayed a little longer today, of which I think doesn't make a difference. pleah. So I did a lil Don't Mess With the Zohan like in the school's library before heading to town to have dinner.

And omygahhhhh! I was up the hill when I bumped into Abu! Goodness gracious, its been ages since I saw him & to see him alive and kicking was so exciting! Hahaha. I know its crazy, but aww, super glad that we saw each other. We didn't get a chance to talk much, and the only thing I asked was "where you going?? See you around bro!" Sheesh.

So yeap, made a tiny trip to town just to have dinner which was super fun and err, embarrassing and secary and and And! Hahaha. you really made me think so deeply about my future okey, and its uber secary lah can! Now that I've spilled all the beans, I feel so blushy okey. Hahaha. Thanks ehh, now I can't help smiling to myself. -.- Heee. 31st July, will never forget this day.

Okey, I think that's about it. I won't be skipping classes again. Promise ( cross fingers xD.) Tommorrow's Computing and I'm so excited! NOT. pleahhh. -__________-

ps: Totally hornic, and on the first night? nahh, you would'nt wanna do that! hahaha. Awww, Don't cry.Hee. x)